谢谢你

谢谢你的你一句话，就让我哭到到这样，
好久没痛快的哭了，
还好室友不在，要不然就丢脸了，
我知道有时候我活在过去，
可是在这刻我真的不知道我还可以找谁了，
每一次说话都要过滤，需要顾别人的感受，
我真的很累，我宁愿都在房间也不想出来，
不想见到你们，看到你们就像给了我很多的压力，
我真的不知道要怎样要面对，
我这的信心再也不是信心了，也许只是从一些人身上得到,
我很想做回自己的我

能吗？

Feedback

Feedback?
Is good or is a bad ?
For me, I like to know how people perceive me ,
But some how I realize that I can't digest in a short time for this moment.
It been passed for 1 month,
But yet till this moment I still remember how you tell me .
I lost myself, I lost my way, I lost everything.
Who gonna help me?
I know myself again. But I fear. I fear from everything.
All these day, all my close friends stay with me, bear with me,
Go through every moment with me.
But yes, fear still with me :D
I'm not even dare step from that point.
I'm acting ?
I don't know.
I smile but with a burden inside? Am I ? Depend who are you to perceive me!
Different people with different feeling yo!

I wish I have a pair of ears to listen to me now :D Just listen will do.
But who is that ?

一个月

One month, I never update here!

Am I nothing to said? or I don't have time to post or I'm not dare to post anything?

I'm sucks , I'm change, I'm selfish? 

I don't know it but yet I'm really enjoy my life here between with my studies!!

From LLDS UUM to LLDS UPM to MNC to Penang , in between presentation, quiz, mid exam, 

I almost can't balance up myself :) 

I learn to be a good listener,

I learn to be a good problem solver

I learn to be please everyone,

I learn a lot of thing but yet I lose myself.

I lost myself!

I lost my personality!

Everyone is learning right ? Believe in what are you doing!

No matter how much you dislike, but yet you still need to continue :) 

预测赶不上变化

终觉得，计划赶不上变化，

每一次就差那一步就最得上了，

但是真的差那一步吗？

还是还有万里步需要我慢慢来赶上去？

很多时候，想做的，做了，但是又在纠结我到底有做错吗？

接下来的日子好像不是人过得一样，

真担心自己的成绩会怎样 :'(

加油加油

Grow Up

Pass 1 year, I never think of apply this position
Pass 6 months, I don't know which position shall I choose
Pass 5 months, I almost give up my position. I went to GCDP to find back myself.
Pass 4 months, I started to love my job
Pass 3 months, I went to TtT as a VP learning. Nothing much I want to gain due of my sense of belonging.
But after all, I know I shall have different way for my department.
Pass 2 months, we kept busying with RD. I still remembered till this moment, when people shoot me, give me feedback , I was so down and give up on this.
Yes, I make it after that. I always challenge myself to do more, to experience more!
Pass 1 month, I started to have my new role in LLDS - conference manager. I was so scare of it. I scare I can't make a good result, a good conference. I was stress up myself .
And now , LLDS passed, I have a lot of feedback that said I'm improved.
Yeap, I'm happy for it and wish to improve more !

I never think that I can gain so much in few months,
I never think that I can improve so much
I never think that people will praise me
I never think that I have such characteristic.
Yea, I like to be introvert some times but this is my characteristics I guess :P
No matter what , I shall provide my team a good learning, I shall provide my MT a good platform.

Thank you to everyone!!

离开

不知为什么有时候真的不觉得一回事，
有时候却觉得很想离开，
根本就不想知道当中发生什么事～
或许这段友情对大家已经没有意思了，
我不知道，
有时候无聊时看看大家的面子书，
有着大家的照片，
是我太忙还是什么呢？
我可以选择离开吗？

一个月的生活

在大学已经一个月了，
不知堕落了多少次，哭了多少次，出去了多少次，争吵了多少次，
累了，哭了，笑了，逃避了，结束了
过了风风雨雨，一切都已经结束了,
过程中我领悟了不少，改变了不少，
是好是坏？自己知道，能不能度过也是自己知道,
一路上，看到的不少，逃避了不少，
再次也看到了谁对你真心还是假的，
谁是你的朋友,谁是你的同党，一切看到清清楚楚
感谢你们这一路以来的陪伴。
谢谢你总是在我身边听我的诉苦，听我哭，安慰我
谢谢你一直都在帮我做些事，
谢谢你一直在纠正我
谢谢你一直都是我的开心果
谢谢你，虽然在遥远的你还是很支持我
谢谢你在课业上的帮助
谢谢你们在我最需要时出现 ：）

这条路是我选的，我相信我会走到最后

得罪

经来，我觉得我得罪的人太多了，
我是有意还是没意的得罪了？
有时候，我觉得自己在开玩笑但是有时候原来我真的真的得罪了，
得罪的又是我最好最关心我的人，
是不是因为习惯了你们，我开始对你们发脾气？
是不是你们的存在让我更放肆，
虽然有时候，我真的真的很压力但是我不可以选择说出来，
是不是因为我真的改变了自己，
岁月不留人，不过以前有多么的好，还是依然的改变了，
不管以前见面有多么的多话题，还是没有了，
是人的问题，还是不在一起的问题呢？
改变让我不知应该要怎样面对同样的人，有时候真的不知所措，
最近我收到很多comment :) 有好有坏，可以说的是我还在进步当中，
谢谢你们的提醒 ：D

一星期

一星期看来不是很长，但我却不觉得很短，

在一星期内，我有招生活动，introduction to @, 跟朋友出去玩，还有开会等等。

累吗？ 我真的很累，但是我却很开心，

当你真的跌的时候，你真的看到朋友的支持与鼓励，

万万想不到他/她是谁？

这一切让我感到很温馨，很感动，

有时候，你在等待那一个的他，但是偏偏是另一个的他？

感觉如何？ 失望？失落？ 还是开心？

我并不知道，告诉自己尽量不要放朋友的飞机，但是有时候真的不行，我真的好想好好的休息而已，

有时候，朋友真的因为你而出去，真的不可以让他们失望=）

还记得那天晚上我们有排练，我的表现并不是很好，

我很讨厌自己的我，我不喜欢在前面说话，也不喜欢听别人的评语，

但是我知道是为自己的好。

当晚，听到*他* 的评语，真的觉得有点失落，也觉得自己很没有，

明明应该要做个榜样给他们看，但最后是什么样子？

不想来的日子，也来了，我还是一样的面对，

果然，当有了勇气，一切都不一样，

谢谢你们的鼓励与拥抱，还有你的批评 :)

在忙碌的日子，朋友依然明白我的困扰，还特地提早与延期为我庆祝生日，谢谢你们，

还有一班可爱的学弟学妹，我的前队友，你们的陪伴让我感到欣慰：D

谢谢你们在你们忙碌，休息时间还出来陪伴我。

说真的，这次的生日，我想要的都得到了：D

虽然在忙碌的你，不能参与我们，但是你的礼物真的真的很不一样：D

谢谢你们 ：)

这星期我过得很开心:)

*upload photo soon*

在一个月内，让我知道了跟我最好的男生，
都开始有女朋友了，
我还应该找他们吗？
好像很不应该，
为什么？ 我真的不想扯进去，
有时候，我在想我想太多了对吧？
我真的不想在看到这样的情景了
我觉得我很自私

祝你们永远开心，快乐 ：）

I won't give up

Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmm ...

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

This song play 3 times when I'm on the way to Penang for my celebration :D
I'm wonder are you still remember you did sent me before?
Or I just think too much when listen to this song :(
I'm wish I can know you from the beginning but not this kind of situation.
I'm so emo ing nowwwwwwwwwwww

Cheer for tomorrow.
Everything will be fine.

Challenges are waiting for me :D

Happy Birthday to myself 

Holiday End and New Semester Kick Start

My holiday just awesome !
I went to China, Vietnam and attended some conference for AIESEC stuff :D
I like it, I miss it and I love to do that!
I wish to back to China in short periods
Can I ?
What if China just nearby me?
All this thing just ended!
I should kick new life now :D

I'm not believe I'm in semester 5 NOW!
Old ? Ya, I'm feel that I'm so old now :(
New semester start with new room mate ( not yet meet my room mate), New DPP ( should be SME ), New environment, :(
I'm still enjoying with all the progress up until right now :D
I'm trying not to ffk friends, but I did it yesterday :(

Busy with activities? NOOO.  I just spent my time wisely with all my friends and my dear Gang :)
Feedback, comment, I did receive a lot from my beloved one :)
But believe me, I'm still me the previous one
But thanks that you wake up me in the same time.

just random update :)

Thanks

A simple word but is truly from my deep of heart!
Thanks!
6 simple alphabet combine together!
Mean a lot to me.

Thank  for support me and understand me :D
I appreciate all the moment together with you,
and your care too!
Although we are not team mate anymore,
But I believe your support, and team support !
I believe of our spirit of one year team mate, maybe you think I still remember last time memory and not move further! But i want to tell you, our memory let me be TOUGH, let me be cheer and let me MOVE on always.!

I love you all and hate you all in the same time! Serious!
I love the moment together and I hate the care too! Make my tear out always.
Your only call make me tears out but deep in heart I appreciate it :D

Thanks you my team mate! I love you

China Trips

Finally finally ! I'm going to update my day in China :D
After my last paper for semester 4, next day I'm fly to China I believe I can fly =)
Exclude of Thailand, this is my first time to go overseas! Far from my friends, far from my family and everyone that I loved.
Feeling totally suck when you are alone. I just feel my decision just wrong. I remember he said to me *you never make a wise decision*. That moment, my feeling really down down down. and almost want to pulp out myself. But is okay, I shall move on no matter what!

First destination ---> Guangzhou. I reach Guangzhou on 28 Jun 12.30am . We had book our room but yet very far from airport,no bus but only taxi and some is personal ( a bit dangerous if take it) I'm no care because Wei Tong is with me. I just let him do decision for that :D Next day we meet Nicole for outing. Nicole is Wei Tong's friends during his first internship. Nothing much to share for that. I just share what I'm experience for that. I like Guangzhou because of their mind in doing business. Every shop have their own design in decorating, as well as their way to attract people to go in their shop. Second, they have attractive lamp to attract us. Thirdly the way they have their meal. They are no eating any rice but just dishes. I like it so much! Other than that, they have a lot of park. And in the park, have a lot of uncle, old man , old aunty doing exercise. I believe most of them are 50 over years old and fit than us :D. In Malaysia, you can't see this kind of situation too! I like the environment as all the places have plant :D Most important, you hardly found people that are over weight, they have slim body I'm jealous because I'm fat . haha Mostly is like that I guess , approach me better . hahahaa.

Next in the train, from Guangzhou to Beijing if take train around 1 day or else take flight but much expensive. Expensive than I take flight from Malaysia . LoL. That way we decided to take train. I never think how was it be, I just know they have stand ticket. I can't imagine how people stand for so long time. We need to extend our day in Guangzhou due of few more day only have sit ticket. What to do right? In the train, OMG, different, really different from Malaysia =( And I'm can't accept it but I have no choice for that. Accept it =)

Reach Beijing in the early of the day, I reach almost 7 am but start 5 am , the day become brighter. I don't like Beijing because a lot of pollution. I like Beijing because of their transportation really cheap. While I have training in Beijing, I'm going a lot of places like Temple of Heaven, forbidden city, Olympic as well as Great Wall~ Beijing is a place to gather all EP to start our training and yet for us to travel around with all buddies and OC. I hate this place and love here in the same time. LOVE because I meet a lot of great people, new friends and I know what is the real friendship . I hate here because I need to face 离别。 一个学期，一个大学生涯但，不知道要面对多少次离别. I knew Wen Ju, EP from UPM, youngest than me but mature than me. Some time ignore me but after wallet missing, we know the friendship! Other than this Adam, Faten's buddies but close to me. Same ages with my brother but yet body size is bigger than me *dun let him see this* , mature than me and very humors! I like it. This place as well , we know that we can't go to Ankang city. That mean I need to separate with them! When the moment I have some one to talk with, to trust with, to believe with, but I need to separate with them. My tears out when outing with them but I told myself I need control it. Yea , I make it but I'm not sure they saw it or not. Till this moment, I still remember the moment of waving hand in the train! One week friendship but can give me a big impact :D
Friendship, time management, project management is core element throughout whole week in Beijing.

I had my second experience in train from Beijing to Tian Shui. Its taking 26 hours and 9 hours bus. I'm okay with that? Maybe had it before or else I know most of them in the same train? I'm just be quite actually.

Next, Gansu for my project. I had update all about Gansu before. View it ya. In between , i'm going to Jiu Zhai Gou, the most beautiful and the place that I like the most for China Tour. Can't see the picture? I purposely to do that =) Throughout all the journey in China, I like this place the most. Why? Is natural and near to my hobby! I believe I will go again next time with my love one? or my friends for sure! in different time!

Next and last destination before Malaysia, Xi An, historical places in China. I dislike it the most. Maybe I hate history~ I'm not China people , I don't like to know it ! haha. I feel a little bit waste to reach there =( but feel great that my buddies accompany me till the last day of mine in China. Appreciate in much. This places is more on Muslim places but yet I can't eat much on their food. i don't like it seriously because its too salty for me and they have a lot of *liang chai* Really cold and seem like never cook before! Malaysian like eat this? No No! I don't like it very much. That way don't want upload photo too :D

Let me conclude for the trip in China. I like this trip , I do learn a lot. I need to do my own decision, i can't depends on my friends anymore =( I feel helpless but life still going on. Thanks to some of you that always ask me my life , At least I feel people supporting me =) I can;t be independent right? haha. China is TOO big and their cultural, their traditional food totally different for every province. If you travel from a place to a place, you can feel the different and just same like you a travelling from a place to a place ya =) let try it in future. Just take an example, their hp number if use in different province just like international charge. Suck right but is true for that! Other than that, I know few people for @er from Malaysia. Seriously AIESECer and non AIESECer is different , I just feel that. Do you believe it? In China,  Most of their  parents wish their child just marriage in the same province, if possible same village. Funny but true as well. China is not a best place for travel but China can be the best place for you to accept others thinking, to put others shoes in your shoes, can let you develop yourself and let you try a lot of different mean while time. You can choose not believe me but believe yours experience. You can get it differently :D

I'm lazy to type recently. Approach me if you want to know more. But believe me travel and exchange is totally different. I know why as I have this experience in three month time! I'm going to China and Vietnam right after that. When I'm start having my exchange, my feeling is so suck, scared, almost cry when the time is around the corner, it just feel that you don't want to step out at all but travelling is different, you feel enjoy and no stress at all. Just thinking have fun with your friends. Believe me or not? You shall try it ! Believe me !
Story can attract you but how to feel it? LETs go EXCHANGE together !

*Vietnam update soon*

Fat Fat Fat

One week at home after my exchange in China and my awesome trip in Vietnam.
seriously my life with eat, sleep, online or hang out with friends
I don't like this kind of life. Too boring perhaps~~
I really should extend my trip with Ee Mei. LOL
Other than online, I'm doing @ stuff. all pending stuff while I'm in Exchange =(
I don't why I still doing it although I know its stressful?
I love it ? I'm not sure yet.
Just take it .

Ya, my reason why I write blog today !
*sorry for my pending update* ( China and Vietnam)
Mostly people saw me, WHY WHY WHY  you become FAT?
WHY WHY WHY you seem berisi?
No people believes me I'm going rural places.
No people believe me I'm get stomachache throughout the week
Ya, I'm sad ? I don't know. I just enjoy the day over there!
Today I'm finding my formal trousers.
Finally I admit I'm really really really gain weight for this two month!
Shall I happy?
NO , I'm really sad indeed.
but I have to admit when people asking =(

Sad ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Plus my room number still blank right now

My Internship

As I promised, I will share my experience of my project in China.
Just to stated, after considering for two day. I choose Gan Su as my exchange places.
Gan Su is last three developing in China.
Could you imagine the places?
My training started on 7 July in Beijing.
My project management was'nt good. We face a lot of trouble and difficulties throughout the internship. Most of us (EP) just feel want to give up on this project but we are not did that for sure.
i just feel all about Gan Su is the best =)
To reach Gan Su, I need to take 25 hours train and 9 hours bus to reach the school.
2 days 2 night not slept in the good condition,
Just make my emotion unstable.
3 am in the morning reach the school. All the way to school just in dark condition.
When the reach school, just feel that I been cheated. Am I?
 The toilet can't acceptable by us. Perhaps we never try that. Toilet don't have any water provided or even a DOOR!! We don't have any electricity in our room, fan but we been provide a lamp =( If we want to charge our hp , laptop, we need to go office and charge it .
For room is acceptable by me although with a thin bed and hard pillow, perhaps too tired. I'm easily fall asleep that day.
Next day, when I'm open my door, the places is so adventure and nice! I like it so much. All mixed feeling had been changed but not student toilet ya ^^
First day , we been introduce to student and teacher over the school. After that we having team building game with student and a session with a title Dream.
Until now i still remember a girl said she want change her life with study and change her hometown to modern city step by step. When I'm listen to this , I'm asking myself, what is my next step?
Ya, most of them never step out from that village for 10 years plus. I'm not sure how are they survive all these year.  They ever meet foreigner, universities students before us. 3 years back, the environment is worse than now but everything change after earthquake. Government of China subsidize and change the facilities of that village .
Facilities of that school better than UUM. Their projector , LCD TV in touch screen. So in RIGHT? UUM also don't have I guess ><
We have 12 EP in these project ( 6 from UIR and 6 from UIBE ). Due of too many people in charge of Math, I need to in charge in music with another 2 EP and 3 chinese buddies =(
Without any knowledge on that,i take up this responsibility to let them more English song. Perhaps never try never know. In our opinion, they have some level in English knowledge but too bad is out of our expectation. A simple song like Little Indians, Lion King Song, they can't sing well and pronounce it well =( Oh gosh. I don't know until a guy came to me and ask me about verbs. I realize they learn English in Chinese character . The way they speak just like pronounce in Chinese! Oh gosh , how they can develop if just taking teacher from same background on that?
We divide to three class, small, medium and big class . The most harder handle is small class.They are too hyper until don't know how to control them usually =( while medium class just shy among each others. Music group in charging of DTD of big class as well.
When get along always, big class started to enjoy our session and trying to speak in English ^^
Basically we start our class at 7.40 am until 11am continue by 2pm until 5pm. After 5pm, we join them playing badminton, basketball, pingpong etc to have healthy life? For sure just spent our day over here. Other than that, we go around the village to have a look. Most nearest city need take 2 hours journey by bus =( I never left the school unless  just play around the village =)
We don't have fan because the weather is so cool~ A rumor stated that if night time have a lot of star, next morning will have a hot weather! I'm not believe it until I make experience on that!! Believe or not , those kid wear the same shirt for few days up to 1 week / 2 week. We just see the same shirt that they wear all those day. To be frank, i can't accept the smell in class but I have no choice. From them, they just bath one week once if necessary. Before earthquake, they need take water from river just for bath. What a pity? I don't think I want to bath if I required to do so? As we are 1st batch EP a.k.a foreigner, they give us to bath every day with time limit from 5pm - 10 pm. We have 30 over peoples! But is okay because most of the chinese buddies bath 2 day once or 3 day once. Although they bath , but yet still wear the same shirt! Oh gosh ><
Next food. Our food paid by my LC , UIR as promised! Our breakfast is Man Tou with soya bean , or porridge. Lunch provide rice with some vege and Dinner just Mee. Everyday just repeat the same menu , so boring but we don't have choice to choose others food. If you are rich, but yet you still can't buy a bowl of rice! WT*...... We able to eat meat 2 day once with combination of vegetarian. For them beef, pork or even chicken is very expensive. They not able afford for some family =) Shall we save food next time?

In my own opinion, they are more clever than us . They know a lot of thing and truly experience on that. We just learn and going to practice when we are working. Perhaps what we learn , we just use in future but we don't know how those thing come, where is the reason and they know it! We are fail right?

A guy told me they don't like city, for them there is no freedom in city compare in village. They can go any where without inform their parents . They can swim every where and do whatever they feel is okay and no harm for them.

I wish I can have their life. But too bad,  I still need face reality =) Accept it and experience it.

NOW, i proud to say I know the reason why people go for few time GCDP!
I wish I have second GCDP =)

* Vietnam trip update soon*

Just a random update from me

I guess almost 1 month,
I just far from this blogger!
Not because I don't want internet access problem.
Simple update, I had done my GCDP!
Wohooo~~
I like it and I wish to stay longer but I can't =(
I know I need to back my reality!!
Update more when I back from Vietnam
Current Location : Xi an
I had travel 5 province here!
But I spent less than 6 k ( if not mistaken )

Happy holiday!
I miss all the kids =(

一开始，我的buddy 说我们去了甘肃时我的心有点伤心，

但就算了，这是我要的，

但过后知道马来西亚的男生也和我一块儿去，心情好多了，

但不知为什么，我们都得分开，

最后, 我去了甘肃，他去了浙江

原以为他也有去的，至少我有个伴

但，现在都煲汤啦

不知道为什么就那么的不开心也不舍。

现在已经没依赖，再加上自己最亲的也去了别的地方！！！

真的不好受啊

怎么办？

一个学习吧，我还可以认识其他的EP!! 

加油吧！！我没事的

纠结

只看照片的朋友都会觉得我的exchange蛮开心的，

但，我有的压力，不蛮的都没人知道！！

昨晚悄悄的哭了一下。

有时恨不得快的回去啊！要不是transportation 的问题，我根本就没事吧！！我不知道啦

今天，我的活动就开始啦

人等人，慢，这些都还好人多吗， 没法的

去到那所大学就是我们实现的！

才发现到，蛮小间的，他们的人数可能就是Laluan C 的人数，也可能少了一些

今天才知道我们没去西安了。

开始时他们会分我们去甘肃和河北。

甘肃比较像执教，有好多小孩的，也是我想要去的乡下。。可是能搭火车需要十几小时啊·，然后能河北离北京只需要一小时半。那是叫盲人的！

好难选哦。

过后呢，再给我们宁铂，比较靠近广州啦。当然我比较想选择个。因为不用烦了吗！

不过能，是教教育机构的！还是有钱人，然后home stay 的。

根本就不是我想要的

让我纠结的是一个我想要体验的，一个能是靠近我的机场！

我真的好纠结啊！！

怎么办？

北京的经验

来到了北京，就好像再出了一次国，
又要开始适应一切了
一大清早就抵达了北京西站,
由于自己的buddy 有考试就不能接我了，
还好我们的team leader 人很好=)
北京站真的很大，大到可能迷了很久才找到出了～
看到外面的风景，跟广州真的天和地一样，
广州人多但车不多，但北京，车，巴士，自行车，人多得很,
巴士也挺特别的，有几种，
有double 的，有比马拉西亚长一半的，有小型巴士（载两个人而已），还有一个是好像车厢一样的！！
看到都晕啦～
这里最便宜的是巴士，去哪都是一元 （RM 0.50）,
刚到才知道原始的旅店不出租了，所以介绍了另一间，问题是每间都没房啊，
已经没睡好，然后要在前台等了几个小时。 
其实我还好，OC 们倒在考试，但是又要忙我们的事，
最后找到另一间旅馆, 
环境不错的，错的是他们就离开我啦，
不熟悉的我，打算在旅馆休息就好了，但觉得很浪费，
然后在房里认识人由美子，她是日本人，不过华语说到很好的
来到中国有三次啦，他到处去的！！
所以答应做我的导游！还好有个伴
由于有点累只去了南锣鼓巷走走+吃吃
然后就回了旅馆休息，


隔天我们去了Temple of Heaven (天坛西门）
里面真的很大，如果要真真的走完，真的不可能在短短的三小时走完的。
再去吃肯德鸡（没东西吃了）,
肯德鸡超难吃。。哈哈，再加上没辣椒，根本吃不下 =(
过后吃了王府井，好多小食啊！可惜没人陪我一起颠，所以不能吃那么多=（
这样让我想起你们啦=(
在这儿，一开始都是跟着由美子一起逛逛的，但
她累了，所以先回去. 爱拍风景的我就一路沿着走，
突然间，就给的男孩挡着，向我要钱。
那一时刻，只是知道要保护自己和自己的东西，
跑进了服装店，向他们求助，但她只是叫我去警察局，
要是我懂，也不用找你们啦
没法子所以去了另一家，但一样的被拒绝了
所以一路走的，他跟着我然后抓着我！有我的背包，
还好他没什么力的，可以推开他，
但身边的人看着也不理你！
心里想，怎么办好？几时可以摆脱？
大约十几分钟后，一位好心的男生帮了我赶走他，
但更本就没心情走下去了，
另外我也很怕了。就决定会旅馆休息
当晚，一个EP到了，她从Malta过来的，
看到这里的环境，她有点不习惯，所以哭了。
想到这个，觉得自己好像不想家，也不会哭（要不是没发生的话，我挺好的）
好像有点没用哦！！


一大早，team leader 为了处理一些事过来了，
好可怜哦，没睡一夜，然后还要考试再加上要受我们的气，
并不好过的呀
陪着刚到的EP吃了早餐后，才去了我们的琉璃厂，
其实也有点晚了，
不过没办法=）
然后再去前面那儿。由于天安门关了，所以去了前面街逛逛，
大约晚上8点到旅馆。
还没休息，收到了信息，就等待电话。
很多时候就想不能理解吗？ 还是因为在project 的了解下，
我能理解与适应一切。
当中很多的不满，不开心。


才那么一天，我就快晕啦。我好希望你们快点来吧！
看到这样的情景，我真的不明白为什么我不会发脾气，
跟到他们的我，肯定会发脾气的！
或许人生地不熟吧！
现在再不适应环境的话，以后要面对的更多！
一定要加油！！

*我不会寄明信片，因为太贵了！！ 回国再给你们吧×

广州点点滴滴

飞机抵达广州后，

已经是凌晨了，马拉西亚的飞机场都是二十四小时的，

但广州不同，将在最后航班清场，

本来我们想在McDonald过一晚，但他们的店很早就关啦，

没办法之下，叫了车，回我们订的旅店，

还真怕是黑车啊！

隔天，我们见Nicole，她带我们去玩玩，

一开始我们先去火车站买票，但人实在太多了，更本没法子逗留在那买啊

过后再去Nicole家吃荔枝，挺好吃的啊！，也很甜

过后只是走走而已，

晚上去了Nicole 爸爸店吃晚饭，

广州的人少吃饭，多吃菜，

最好吃的是鸽子！看来以后也没什么机会了啦=)

吃了晚饭，我们去了看夜景，

一开始觉得贵的我们，看了后都觉得很值得，去广州的人都必须去哪看看，

第二天见了stephanie ( 其中跟我一样project的 EP)

他带了我们去天河吃点心，朋友也很值得，

去了北京路走走， 平时一样到处都是人，看到你都怕～！！

有时店与马拉西亚一样的但价钱比马来西亚便宜多了，

晚上去了Phillips 家吃他父亲煮的食物，santong

晚上的北京好看很多了，他们的商业必须靠多样化来展现他们，要不然就没有生意了

第三和第四天都是在吃喝与看看而已，

去了越秀公园，陈家室，还有一些古老的地区，（看照片吧）

在广州给我的感觉时，

人多得很，食物也便宜，

当然，我领悟到的是，其实我们呀可以学学他们做生意的方法，

倒不是坐在那等钱收，

再加上他们的店，去每一家都不一样设计的，

看到了也比较新鲜

人来人往，你不可以停下你的脚步，要不然，就是给人撞到了，

你等人，也就是说你慢了，没位给你了～！

虽然只是短短的几天，看到的都很多，

好像这里的老人家都很健康，每天都做运动啊

只要在空地，他们都会做运动=）
很多时候， 有些人做了粪，导致对中国的不好，
虽然真的不好，但当然他们好的一面我们也得学习一下

在这儿也快五天了，我才吃了三餐的饭， 其他的都是吃菜而已。。
难得吃菜也能饱啊

一路去北京拿了整整二十二小时，
背后有累又酸，可是我真的我不明白他们怎样能顶啊，
有些人为了回家乡，宁愿站二十几的=）
另外的，他们虽然得坐/站那么久，脸上都是笑容啊，
换成是我可以吗？
有个小妹妹，为了朋友站了那么久！
我在想，我可以为朋友那么做吗？
或许对我重要的吧！！哈哈

这个旅程真的很爽！！
领悟了不少=) 但我还是没那么独立啦
哈哈！！=）

Guangzhou

Guangzhou!!
I reach safely and going to post in once I arrive in Beijing * stay tuned*
Tomorrow going to Beijing by train ( 1 day in train)
I'm going suffer a lot
If I get internet connection, 
I will online soon =)
 just wait for my picture =)

Semester 4 END

Finally ,
Semester 4 comes to the end!!
This semester full of challenging as well as emotion!
Happy, sad, stress, enjoy !!
Pass flies fast,
I just feel that I just start my semester but now is ended!
No matter what,
memories still in my mind!
From MyLDS - Dannok - EGM - outing in between - Steamboat - Hatyai - Langkawi- Steamboat again!
Crazy moment to Penang~!
Mid semester break went to Genting~~!
Everything pass to fast!


But ,
my studies?
I had try my best ( is that the best one, I'm not sure )
No matter what is it, 
I believes, 
experiences more important than everything =)
Happy holiday to everyone of you!!


This semester break,
I'm not going to works!
But I'm going to EXCHANGE!! *i never think of it before*
-------------------------->>>>>>> CHINA!!
I'm not sure why and why ( only myself know the real reason why I go exchange )
exited mood to go for it and done everything by myself ( after get guidance )
But ,
when the time come near!!
I'm fear, afraid and everything!!
I just wish that i can escape it
I don't want go for it!!
Is doesn't matter of wasting ( what i think that time)
I just scare !!
But i know my way, my behavior will cause unhappier 
AND
most important!!
I just stay in my comfort zone!!
I can't develop myself more!


And this hold me until right now!
I believe a lot of thing,
no matter this is gonna cheat me or what
I just believe if I feel okay on it!!
This is the biggest step that I take *if without wei tong, don't know what my feeling alone in airport*
First time separate with family * although always not at home* 
in a distance that can't back easily!!
But i made the decision, i should go for it!! * some one said that i always made wrong decision*
* i will prove that my decision is correct*


What i want gain throughout this!!
I hope i can see thing from different way!
I hope I can manage my stuff differently *mature way*
I hope my emotional will be better !
I hope I can enjoy every session and explore CHINA!!
I hope i can get something to utilize in my term!!


LOOKING FORWARD FOR MY EXCHANGE!!


Dear my friends,
I'm okay and don't too worry about me!
Is just seem like I'm a small kids that need people take care always!
I will enjoy and miss you guys!!

* I always update my blog , just visit my blog throughout my internship and know my situation*

Next ----- > I will be going to Vietnam
I thought that this is my first trips!! 
but too bad, China comes first!!
Sorry =)
This was my sudden decision too!
Never think on it and everything came to sudden to me 
And for sure looking forward too!!


Next ----> Trip to Malacca!!
With all my form 6 gang!!
I can't escape since this is first trip among us!!
I gonna killed by them if ffk!!




This is overall my holiday!!
Still have one more trips at Subang!! But not sure will be ON or Fail to do it!!
YES!!!Full of trips!!
I will enjoy every moment that i have
my uncle always said " jauh perjalanan, luas pemandangan"
my mum told me, although you use much money on this holiday, believe that you will gain more !!
*subsidize me ma, gonna pokai liao*




* Holiday start *

24 Jun 2012

Today I'm going back to my *lovely* university to sit my final examination
Tomorrow going have 1st and last steamboat with my HIAO gang in semester 4.
Two more days, I'm going to sit POM paper and last paper in semester 4 ( I had for 2 week )
Three more days , I'm going to take my first flight to overseas!!
Four more days, I'm going reach Guangzhou!!

Now, I'm having my mix feeling to go for EXCHANGE!!!
I don't know why.!
Just right after receive an email, I feel so scared, i feel so helpless!! But I'm want to experience!!
I feel so blur with the situation, places, people~~!
Everything~~
How fast I can adapt?

Tough time again

I'm not sure,

I need gone through how much hard time in a semester/life.

There is need a lot of scarified from my side

I need to balance up myself. 

i know I can do it. 

I'm not saying my time management is good. 

But at least I can do it for this moment.

But some how,

When suddenly stuff came to me, i fail to manage it well.

i'm lost and lost again.

I'm pretty sure until this moment, 

I'm still in good condition =)

Why? 

I'm no so sure but yet my study seem gone for this semester,

I'm not really care on it. I'm just play and play.

I'm not sure what result I will get but I'm kinda worry not ( yet don't want study again)

Within these few day,

I need to study,

I need to packing,

I need to exam,

I need to do my planning,

I need to deliver my stuff!

I need to meet my dear friend

I need to .............

I can't list down any more.

I just feel my time is super less.

Time getting near to me!

i'm going say good bye!

I'm not worry anymore but worry more for my stuff .

This is another tough time for me again =) 

Cheer my friends.

In life , we might can't get what we want. But do you think you really go and work hard for what you want? If yes, don't regret. If not, don't blame it !

You can get another way around.

I'm always believe how you treat a people, there is some one will treat you the same one. 

You might don't know but there is always beside you!

nothing can make you down unless yourself

Don't let situation is suit you but you suit the situation.

Vice President of Learning

Yesterday,
Result been announce,
VP of Learning!!
Shock?
So do I?
I worry a lot,
but i believe ,
people choose have their own reason,
No matter what reason is it, I should strive for it,
This is my last position, last chance in AIESEC UUM,
I should left some legacy behind!
I must do my best!

Cheer everyone!
I hope I can strive with everyone of you, you and YOU!!

成绩

今天成绩终于公布了，
好像在公布第四学期的成绩..LOL
其实如果是成绩的话多么好？
不用烦！
过到就有钱拿，没有就没有了！
可是这是我以后的日子
一年后的日子
怎么办？
这是我想要的吗？
这个月以来，都是为同伴们加油，
也没想过，
看到成绩我有点惊讶，
这是我要的吗！？
我并不知道
心里有点不知该怎么表达的心情，
怎么办？
好像很多矛盾的， 冲突发生
既然人家都相信我，为什么我不相信自己呢？

AM I?

I'm too perfectionist or my progress to fast?

I can't adapt in the situation or?

Or am I stress enough?

I'm no so sure.

I'm waiting a answer from you.!

I really to improve myself to make a better one.

I need to learn how to guide a people, be a good leader

I worry,I wonder a lot

Is that I create the problem or I too hurry?

Hurry in making any decision?

Running a way is my solution.

I know i can't solve any with running but I have no choice.

Teach me HOW?

My close friends always said that I'm depend too much on people?

Am i?

I'm not so sure with myself right now =)

我们的旅程

第一个是国伦为Irene's Farewell 做的！！

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=78pwpCaqRKI&feature=plcp


这是我第一次做的Video..虽然不是很好！但我相信里面装满了我们的回忆，故事，
没人可以取代他们在我心目中的一个位 =）

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0JgoMS-lGGA&feature=plcp

大家往前看吧！

一年的分别

一开始，本来就只是我们四个人，

没打算拿任何junior，

只知道一开始我就是反对党，

意见永远都不和，

一开始就不想再继续，

觉得很辛苦=）

过后，我的老板说我觉得你们应该要有Junior，

你们应该学领导～

就这样我们开了三个位，

不知道为什么就拿了四个=）

一开始大家本来就没有话题，

可是就要找话题，

还记得那时候，

国伦一直说要用*铲* 来铲人，

还有名句说，名花虽有主，让我去铲铲土～

当时候的我们笑个不停～～

单纯的样子=）

日子久了，慢慢的大家的话题多了，

也开始三八了，

但是还是很保持形象,根本就不敢得罪对方～

不知不觉，一个学期很快的就过完了，

因为表现，大家都继续地留在里面～

但当然过了一学期，

大家的pattern，大家的真面目终于出现了，

开始敢乱乱讲话，乱乱tease人，

也知道了大家都爱吃！ 

就因为共同的喜好，

我们蛮时常一起出去吃

有时候觉得，我们对钱的观念根本就不在乎，

而只要大家能在一起吃，玩，

就是我们的乐趣了=）

从team mate, 我们渐渐的变了很好的朋友

值得信任的朋友

虽然，有时候一些可能上了对方的心，

但我们都知道，都是为大家好，

希望我们能改变=)

信任是我们的主要秘诀，

我们不会怀疑大家什么的不好，

但当一个人开始有难题时，

我们的会在身边支持与鼓励=）

说真的，以前我从来不会想我会有很好的朋友在这团队里，

但这是我最好的礼物=0

我相信虽然我们以后会变，

但照片的我们，

永远都不会骗人，

我们永远的回忆，根本再也得不到了

可爱的他们，好像很害羞，但日子久了，样子都是骗人的=）

一开始更本就不去想会煮到好吃还是难吃，但很期待的等着这天的到来，
或许大家的信任，大家想在一起的日子，时间，终于抽出了这一天=）
当然大家真的煮到很好吃

为了今天的旅程，大家skip Ko-K,， 真的太坏蛋了！！哈哈

不知为什么，我们对于自助餐蛮有兴趣，去到哪，吃到哪
或许这样大家才有满足感，还是其实想在一起的时间比较长？

要对Langkawi 说再见了！

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大家的坦白导致我们更本不理一切，想做什么就做=）
但我们也不介意

在这刻，我真的很想时间停留但我不能自私，
大家的拥抱给了我安全感，给了我一股的勇气

大家的真心笑，我领悟了

你背我，我背你就好像当一个人有心事时，我们都可以找到聆听者

不知不觉，时间理我们而去，

一起的我们或许会很伤心，很难过

但谢谢你们的一直陪伴，

如今的我再也不会因此而哭，

因为，我们应该很开心，

我们给了大家不同的回忆=）

永远的爱你们 <3

再次面对的离别

人生中面对不同的离别，
现在又要再次面对离别，
可以说是麻木还是假装？
没有感情还是不想去想？
我并不知道也不想知道，
自私还是掩饰着自己?
一切都会过去=）

在计划中的计划，
原来有少许的失败，
还说计划很多东西，
竟然在最重要的一天出错，
有点不能原谅自己。

毕竟要时间到了，
就要说再见，
真的还能再见吗？
真的还有那么多的话题吗？
真的还有那么好吗？
即使再见面，还可以那样吗？
有去有来，
每个人都应该有一样的机会，
但，我能吗？
还是封锁着自己不想再接触，
不想再去理？

怎样说，感情用事，
情绪化，重感情都不应该出现，
应该以平等的心情去面对，
但，能吗？
大学快两年了，
好像一点都长不大，
好像很依赖朋友～

压力

很多时候，
觉得自己很冲动，
想要什么，就做什么，
很多时候，是好事也是坏事，
今天随口说说出去吃，很快就回来，
但是依然的那么夜，
好像后天的考试一点都不重要,
只知道随心情走，

今晚，大家都开始有很多话题，
开始互相了解，
每个人的改变，都是有自己的故事，
但有时候不能因为自己的故事，
而不去相信别人～
或许我们会再伤但没试过，怎知道会伤呢？
每个人都有机会进入你的生活中，带来了不同的故事，
也许现在不信任，但给一次机会，
你就会领悟到不同的=）
不是每个人都是会像伤害你的人，
这世界那么大，大家也许擦肩而过，也许缘分而认识了，
给别人机会，也给自己一个机会

我的改变，
也是因为你们，
我相信因为我给你们的机会进入我的世界，
也要谢谢自己踏出那一步去接受你们，
我还记得你说，我们七人改变你一个，以后，你就要改变其他人了=）

今晚，
我领悟了不少东西，
也对自己更了解，也明白了为什么很怕，
我怕自己，我克服不到自己，
也或许我太依赖你们了，
是时候长大了，要学会做自己的决定，
要相信自己是可以的，
或许这决定是错，但每一个的决定有一定的路，
也带来了不一样的故事，
谢谢你们的支持=）

今晚，
看了一个文章，
不要以为后面是最好的，因为现在拥有的才是最好的，
爱情是不等于年龄，不要因为距离而放弃，
爱情可以和你一起坐火车，
不要因为对方不富有而放弃，
只要不是无能的人，勤劳也可以让你富有
累了才放慢脚步，
错了才想到后悔，
苦了才懂得满足，
伤了才明白坚强，
醉了才至道难忘，
别忘了忙碌的生活中好好照顾自己，也别忘了有一班朋友默默的支持你，守护你=）

累

这次的考试很不像我！
不知道为什么就那么累，
一直要睡觉，
根本就不想起来，
明明知道自己读不完，
明明知道自己不明白，
就是不肯起来，
根本就不敢看成绩
虽然成绩揭晓时，人不在，
但依然的重要=）
我很想真真的休息才开始我要做的东西，
我明白我不能自私，
我不能因为自己的累而连累到别人
时间过得很快，
考试就要考完了，
也说我就快要飞了，
但，手上的还有很多没做好
怎么办？
很多时候，我想逃避，
我知道这是我的路
我选的路=）
很多时候，
因为一时的冲动，做了很多决定，
但这是我要的吗？
我真的不会做决定吗？

在身边陪伴的朋友们，
对不起=）
我知道最近都得罪你们，
大家考试加油啦！！

六月

终于踏入了六月份，
就开始面对我的考试，学业，
没有做好充足的准备，也没有好好的面对这次的考试，
根本就不敢看自己的成绩是怎样
谢谢在此的朋友们，coursemate 们的帮忙与支持，
我知道他们额外帮忙，也麻烦了他们不少，
对不起我的冷落 =）
还有两天就要面对第四学期的第一张考试，
还有十一天是我们最后一次的聚在一起·
还有十二天就要回家了
还有二十四天就要开始我的假期了，
还有二十五天就要对马来西亚说再见了
开始我的人生第一次跨国做一些活动，
很期待 =）

有人对我说，

喜欢一个人，但是那人未必喜欢你。如果他也喜欢你，你也必须考虑是否适合走在一起。喜欢并不一定要走在一起，如果自己肯定无法让对方幸福，那么放手让他去，盼望他遇见对的“她”并幸福的一起。

世间最痛苦除了生死离别就是两个相爱的人无法走在一起；世间最最大的折磨是明知没有未来，但是两人坚持走在一起！

为自己要的，为自己的未来想想看到底要的是什么=）

last day of the month

五月过去了，
六月就来临了，
考试，温习，准备，一起来了，
这个月尾就要离开马来西亚了
第一次离开那么久，有点不能接受，
怕不能适应，
这些都挑战我的！
加油～

第四学期的生活真有意义，
充满乐趣，
哭笑欢乐，
什么都有～～

考试了
大家加油吧
谢谢你把我骂醒了，
珍惜这个友谊=）

Choose the road you want but not others want.
Be prepare for yourself but not others prepare for you
Go for it if you really mean it
Challenges yourself if you really want it

在适当的时候放手，也不要有任何的留念
当选择了，就不要犹豫，或许现在觉得自己看不开，相信自己的决定
不会是永远的直路，时间到了，是时候转了
不要因为人，事儿留，但要问看自己能付出多少=）

很多时候，

很多人觉得很38，

其实，我喜欢静静，

当心血来潮时，才38

我知道这世界是不公平的，

当没付出代价，你得到的事不一样=）

虽然有时我不理，其实只是表面上，

对不起啦

改变自己是没人可以帮的，

大家一起加油，

累了放慢脚步，

人不会永远的坚强，

是时候就发泄自己吧。。

我们永远都支持你 <3

Pulau Langkawi

两天的旅游，
其实留下更美好的回忆，
但也让我们更不舍得大家，
虽然，不是每个人都去，
但大家心中都想如果每个人都在多么的好
不过我们都明白的！！

其实，没什么去哪里，
只是去游泳，吃steamboat, 去kuah, 还有一些忘了的地方，
但是每个环境带来了不同的感觉
最重要还是晚上的节目
我们要的是大家一起有说有笑，还有一起哭，
但是因为大家都很high，
都哭不出来，哈哈
第一次很到那么醉，
知道自己在做什么，
但有时候，控制不了自己，
不小心做了不该做的事，（对不起，我真的没心的）

第二天，
只是忙着扫货也来不及去其他的地方,
感觉真爽，
愉快的天往往都很快过，但忙碌的日子还是要过！
考试，assignments, 还有我的活动！！
大家一起加油吧！！

Last Meeting

今天最后一次的见面了，

不知以后还能不能好像现在一样，

一起去吃，去玩，谈心事，

开导我，说是非，

好怀念大家在一起的日子，

时间渐渐的朝向我们而来，

可是不能好好的相处

大家个忙自己的日子，活动，事物。

听到team mate 说，

保持现在的你，相信自己做的一切，

祝你成功，

听到自己的JE说

开心在自己的领导下

听到将继续跟我一起地说，

跟你就是吃喝玩

听到一个跟我蛮好的说

你献出自己很强的一面，其实更本就不是

现在又在重新改变自己

虽然，我知道我的问题，也因为这样会去改，

谢谢你说出我的问题

你们的每句话，

让我有点伤心，

我不喜欢离别，

可是一定要接受，

明天的trips, 我们会留下更美好的回忆，

但是让我感到更不舍。。

当然，他没去，

让我感到有点缺少，

我真的真的好想你去啊！！

不只是好事还是不好，

人真的很累，

累得来又觉得很充实，

但， 有时候因为一些事很不开心

有时觉得做人很难，

在迁就其他人，还是不愿意踏出心里不开心的那一关？

很矛盾自己所做的一切

我真的无所谓吗？

还是我很介意？

我并不知道，

但是，我真的真的很介意所发生的一切 =（

五月份

还有几天，
就剩下半个月了，
日子越来越忙，
有些我根本就没想到，
日子久了，开始累了，
很不想去面对，
可是这条路是自己选的，
怎样都要去面对。

很多时候，
不可以乱乱说话，
我不知应该信谁，
我也不想玩这个游戏，
还没开始，
就已经投降了。。

很多时候，
我不明白为什么我选择牺牲，
但有时候我觉得更本都不值得，
因为给不到我理由去牺牲，
或许，你觉得我自私，
可是这是我的权利，
我有我的路，
我不明白为什么要介意她的想法，
我只知道，
什么还没开始，
我已经觉得很辛苦走下去 =）

大家加油吧，
谢谢你一直都做我的聆听者

两天的假期，让我放松一切，
手头上的学业，活动，exchange ， 一切都被我推开,
只知道，想吃，玩，跟他们一起疯而已。
根本没想到回来会更忙，
不知是不是更本没心理准备，
才看到那么多的是没做好，
我开始失去了方向，不知该从那开始，
学业，活动，facilitator, exchange, quiz, assignment，assessment
把我弄到一团糟，
本来很想哭得我，根本就掉不到泪，
一心只想把它做好，
说真的，
我不知道我还有心吗
我真的很累，很累，
还是我根本就不想去面对这一切·？

人的一生中，会遇到许许多多的陌生人，
有关系不错的，有擦肩而过的。
但是很多时候，不论关系好不好，认不认识，
分别了，就可能一辈子再也见不到了。。
珍惜一切吧

以前

不知为什么，

突然间看回以前的照片，信息，

原来，我们有很多回忆,

很多开心的的话题，

我在想，到底我们之间的承诺还在吗？

还是各有各的伴去诉苦？

现在和以前看都一个信息，照片，

感觉很不一样，

以前的我占友谊很强，

我的就是我的，不想看到别人占有，

也不想失去朋友，

慢慢的改变了，

这在也不是我的问题，

时间久了，看到一些不想看到的问题，

不想看到一些人，

但我还是要去接受，

六月三十号要来了，

我们八人真的会分开吗？

我能应付吗？

我知道每个人都会成长，都自己的朋友，

但不知道为什么很不舍得，

很不喜欢每次听到他们说有缘再见，看你以后要跟谁谈，

我们不可以再是朋友，

听到这些话，我很想哭，有点伤心，但我不可以那么弱，

不管在不喜欢，还是要面对，

每次听到他们说我们都在身边支持你，

还会有吗？ 我害怕去面对，也害怕失去，

以前的我，现在的我，

有改变到吗？

开始有点累了，
开始不想理身边的东西了，
不知为什么
已经没有心了，
有时候，不想听任何心事，
也不想和跟任何人有很好的关系，
觉得自己应付不来，
很想找人谈，
可是每个人都很忙，
家，想回去了，，
很想什么都不带，
就这样跑回家，
让我静静一下
终觉的，人生再也没有那么乐趣，
每天担心这个，那个，
也不明白为什么要那么怕他们，
等待时间的过去，
累了，
但，还需面对一切

手伤后，
好像麻烦了很多人，
好像带来了很多麻烦
其实他们没有义务一定要帮你的，
他们不是你的谁，
有时候，我不想解释所发生的事，
也不想理，
也不想听，
我可以是聆听者但不是最好的人给意见，
很多时候，
我并不想麻烦到任何人，
也不想做什么事，
毕竟也不想伤感情，
我想多了吗？
我不知道，
对不起

四月份

四月，
很忙的一个月，
也是疯狂的一个月，
也是最累的月份！
还有倒霉的月，
希望我的手快点好，
就可以update 所发生的事
加油！

一句你可以从不同人的口中，带来不同的感觉。

一句你可以从不同人的口中，

带给我的感觉很不一样，

或许， 你说的和他说的，

明明就一句， 可是， 影响力很不一样，

以前的一句你可以，带给的变化很大，

但现在， 不知道生疏了，

还是你并不重要了，

还是我放开了？

还是我不再重视了？

有时候，很想你是第一位对我说的，

可是过了，发生了，

才听到，那时候已经不重要了

因为，我已经面对了

我已经看开了

也不明白，当我觉得我不能解决是第一个就想到你，

找了你后，觉得很后悔，

不想麻烦你，

不想成为依赖=）

过了今晚，

我真的能以乐观来面对我的苦难，

我从来没想过我会面对的，

但依然做到不错=）

今晚考试加油=）

最近，

发生很多事，

不知道自己处理的来吗，

不知道处理的对吗？

也不知道我是怎样的一个人，

好像没有我，也不要紧，

那要我来干嘛？

我并不知道～

忍， 还是忍，

很多事，

看了，知道了，

并不想去理

感觉上， 很多事都让我麻木了，

我并不知道，

是好是坏？

我不想再去理一些不关我的事，

找我，我就处理，

过后，update 一下就好了

。

我乐观了吗？

自尊，原则

自尊，原则，
我应该都缺少吧，
总是当没一回事，
总是觉得为了做完那件事，
但从没想到这样的我，是很好被利用的。
我不知道，
自己在挣扎什么，
在理一些根本不需要你理的,
在顾虑一些不需要你顾虑的，
有点笨，有点傻，
可是我还是继续的，默默的做。

A quote said " sometimes you have tried not to care, NO matter how much you do ,because sometimes you can mean nothing to someone that mean so much to you. Its not Pride but self respect =)

或许他对我来说重要，
也或许我珍惜这份友情
我并不要求回报，但让我继续的这样傻吧，
放手， 依然是很辛苦，
但，
我很努力的在学习保护自己

终于，

我决定要拿这次的经验，

做FACI,

他们最后的决定要不要我，再看怎样把，

反正我已经踏出那一步，

好希望被录取，因为我相信我学得更多！

让我最开心的事，

我妈终于给我出国了！！

好期待啊，

我舅也不反对，

看来他的钱包要出血了。。

想通了，不想再因为一个人，

堕落自己，好不值得啊！

不同的人，不同的观念，不同的看法，

或许，我已经有决定了，

只不过想要一些支持而已，

让我更勇敢地去面对！

至少，当我无助时，还有人在旁边的支持我，

我知道没有人可以永远的陪你但我还是给希望自己=）

你想要我跟着你的话去试看，

对，我做到了，

我知道这星期会很难熬，

以不同的心情去克服，我还是依然过得很开心，

谢谢你啦=）

希望你也是哦=）

好久没跟我的JE说话了，

有点想念，有点生疏感，

过了刚才，好很多了！哈哈

最近身体不好，

答应自己要多做运动，吃多水果，蔬菜，

希望不要三分钟热度了！

哈哈哈=）

同一个人不可能永远陪在你身边

Jwei : 同一个人不可能永远陪在你身边

一句，可以换来，

Yookies : 同一个人不可能永远陪在你身边。那个惯性与你每一天信息来往或通电话的人，一共换了多少个你数得到吗？


ZY　：　同一个人不可能永远陪在你身边, 千万别一厢情愿地这么认为~ 人来人往，总有离去的时候~


KY :  那个人没有义务陪你走到最后。但多少个人愿意陪你走哪怕只是一小段的路或者一大截的路。至少他或她拿出勇气陪你走了那么的一段路。谁愿意陪你走就随他陪，不需要多虑，因为至少他真的拿出了心意陪你走了下去。走不走完无所谓，路途里领悟的更是可贵。

同一个人不可能永远陪在你身边， 即使在你身边也不会依同样的方式对待你=)

让我改观！！ 即使以前留下的回忆都么不开心，我不可以用一个人来判断其他人~ 

现在，顺其自然吧=） 

放开了，开心多了， 哈哈

TOMORROW 这个camp，

我好想去，难得的机会，

不过好靠近我的考试哦=（

怎么办？

过了昨晚，放松多了。=）

再次的给朋友们训话，
你想要帮朋友，而不帮自己，
你觉得身边的朋友开心吗？
他们也因为这样生气你=）
她说， 人简单化一点，
你活得更开心，
为什么就把人生复杂化？
不要再活在过去，
你应该要有自己的塑胶袋，新的塑胶袋来过自己的人生=）
不管那个药有多么的苦，依微笑去迎接每个“药”
你的人生就很精彩，也很开心，
谢谢身边关心我的朋友，
也要对忽略的朋友说声对不起，
我是无心的=）

对我而言，
其实生病并没有那么严重，
因为我习惯了，
不管在怎样病也好，只要我能承担，
我就不会戒口，
我并不希望我身边的人担心，也要特别的照顾我，
可是这次不同了，
不管我怎样的求，怎样地说，
她依然禁止我吃这个吃那个，
她那副妈妈的脸，她的关心，
让我很内疚，
但也让我觉得我不会照顾自己，
处处都让人担心=（
那么大了，
还要让人担心吗？

我知道朋友的关心，
是他们愿意给的，他们也没必要那么对我
但我很冷血的一个一个推开，
我不知道自己在想什么，
就因为那一个人，我必须变到这样吗？
我不知道，我觉得自己很笨，
怀疑自己的朋友，关心我的朋友，
你说得对，
我们不能预知以后会发生的事，
但如果你现在一直想负面的，
它一定会发生，
不明白为什么，我害怕接受人家对我的关心=）

为什么你们俩那么像？
说的话， 所做的，关心的，都一样，
让我感觉到害怕，
我真的不敢相信，
因为不想再受伤害，
我并不想在我最需要时，我不敢找你，
我并不想在你最了解我时，你渐渐的离我去，
我知道你们俩是不同的人，我也不应该作比较，
可是，我真的承受不起这个关心

槟城，云顶

Mid Sem 假期，
就打算不回家，
在大学过~
可是最后就来了槟城，
两天就吃了很多，
也玩了很多，
谢谢他们的陪伴


第三天，
我们TMer 去了 WAR MUSUEM，
还没去前，
听了很多故事，
好像很恐怖，
去了，其实还好。
可是就不会再去，
因为很贵也不值得，
听说改了很多=）
让我不能忘的是在黑洞时，
我们四位女生走在WT后面，
在我不注意时， 他溜走了，
那时的我，想很多，也很想哭，
因为很害怕，可是又不能哭，
还是硬硬地走，后面还有比我更怕的
他这样做，
让我发现，就算我再怎样相信一个人，怎样依赖一个人，
他始终会离我而去，
我们并不能预算他/她会陪我们到几时，
我们也不能把他/她永远留在我身边，
另外，
我知道我不管有多么的不想，我依然要往前走，
因为如果我倒了，会把这个事情弄到很复杂=)
其实，我们人生也一样，
不能想象几时是我们的离别=）
所以珍惜我们拥有的一切=）


云顶，
本来不想去的我，
最后还是去了，
或许人家觉得我很多pattern,
可是， 我明白自己=)
到那边不久，我就差点晕了，
还好勉强自己不可以到，
因为不想麻烦大家照顾我=）
这次大家都不是以工作的身份出来，
而想放松自己=）


回来觉得自己很不舒服，
尤其是胃，
看了医生后，
知道自己在病倒了，
胃有今天都是因为吃了一些不该吃的药，
导致现在一直在痛。
医生还说我随时都会晕倒，
一定要定时吃饭=）
血压糖过低=（
不知为什么身体越弱，
好不喜欢啊！！

Happy Holiday

Holiday start right now,
throw away my study, activities,
And FOCUS on eat and play =)
Throw every thing out,
stress, unhappy stuff to outside!

Dear everyone,
enjoy your holiday as semester break start,
you going face a lot of exam, assignment and quizez!

Gambateh everyone =)

压力

压力，
渐渐的朝向我而来，
明明过了今晚，
我的假期就开始了=）
但，不知为什么，
我的胃又开始不舒服，
记得医生说不可以给自己压力，
并不知道在哪一方面给了压力，
学业？活动？
我也很矛盾，
只知道开学后，会很忙而已=）

快点过今晚，
我的假期就开始了！
不想在想什么，
只想在宾城和云顶玩到开心就好！！
过后再慢慢的打算=）
加油啦

放手

在努力当中，
放手真的很辛苦，
导致我不知道我应该怎样，
我不知道我的方向，
我很模糊，
我不知道这条路应该怎样走
前面的路很盲目，
不过我相信我一定能应付！
我一定要学会放手，
一定要依好的去想=）

p/s : hope can stand strong till end =)

Give Up

1. Give up your need to always be right. There are so many of us who can’t stand the idea of being wrong – wanting to always be right – even at the risk of ending great relationships or causing a great deal of stress and pain, for us and for others. It’s just not worth it. Whenever you feel the ‘urgent’ need to jump into a fight over who is right and who is wrong, ask yourself this question: “Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?”Wayne Dyer. What difference will that make? Is your ego really that big?

2. Give up your need for control. Be willing to give up your need to always control everything that happens to you and around you – situations, events, people, etc. Whether they are loved ones, coworkers, or just strangers you meet on the street – just allow them to be. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.

“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu

3. Give up on blame. Give up on your need to blame others for what you have or don’t have, for what you feel or don’t feel. Stop giving your powers away and start taking responsibility for your life.

4. Give up your self-defeating self-talk. Oh my. How many people are hurting themselves because of their negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset? Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.

“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle

5. Give up your limiting beliefs about what you can or cannot do, about what is possible or impossible. From now on, you are no longer going to allow your limiting beliefs to keep you stuck in the wrong place. Spread your wings and fly!

“A belief is not an idea held by the mind, it is an idea that holds the mind” Elly Roselle

6. Give up complaining. Give up your constant need to complain about those many, many, maaany things – people, situations, events that make you unhappy, sad and depressed. Nobody can make you unhappy, no situation can make you sad or miserable unless you allow it to. It’s not the situation that triggers those feelings in you, but how you choose to look at it. Never underestimate the power of positive thinking.

7. Give up the luxury of criticism. Give up your need to criticize things, events or people that are different than you. We are all different, yet we are all the same. We all want to be happy, we all want to love and be loved and we all want to be understood. We all want something, and something is wished by us all.

8. Give up your need to impress others. Stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not just to make others like you. It doesn’t work this way. The moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take of all your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.

9. Give up your resistance to change. Change is good. Change will help you move from A to B. Change will help you make improvements in your life and also the lives of those around you. Follow your bliss, embrace change – don’t resist it.
“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell

10. Give up labels. Stop labeling those things, people or events that you don’t understand as being weird or different and try opening your mind, little by little. Minds only work when open. “The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer

11. Give up on your fears. Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.
“The only fear we have to fear, is fear itself.” Franklin D. Roosevelt

12. Give up your excuses. Send them packing and tell them they’re fired. You no longer need them. A lot of times we limit ourselves because of the many excuses we use. Instead of growing and working on improving ourselves and our lives, we get stuck, lying to ourselves, using all kind of excuses – excuses that 99.9% of the time are not even real.

13. Give up the past. I know, I know. It’s hard. Especially when the past looks so much better than the present and the future looks so frightening, but you have to take into consideration the fact that the present moment is all you have and all you will ever have. The past you are now longing for – the past that you are now dreaming about – was ignored by you when it was present. Stop deluding yourself. Be present in everything you do and enjoy life. After all life is a journey not a destination. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.

14. Give up attachment. This is a concept that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that doesn’t mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another,  attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.

15. Give up living your life to other people’s expectations. Way too many people are living a life that is not theirs to live. They live their lives according to what others think is best for them, they live their lives according to what their parents think is best for them, to what their friends, their enemies and their teachers, their government and the media think is best for them. They ignore their inner voice, that inner calling. They are so busy with pleasing everybody, with living up to other people’s expectations, that they lose control over their lives. They forget what makes them happy, what they want, what they need….and eventually they forget about themselves.  You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.

这篇文章，

是最近大家都在post的，

其实，

很多人尤其是我，

不敢去面对很多事，选择逃避，

选择不理，选择借口，

选择依往坏的方面去想

现在让自己痛，

很多时候，你以为为大家好，其实，很多时候，

惹来的不是感激，感恩，而是人的不爽

其实，你说的对，

要让欣赏你，要让人感到你的存在，

而不是逼人家欣赏你，逼人家感受到你的存在

当你抓得越紧，你失去的更多，

要在适当的时候，放手。

要以好的方面去想，要以开心的发面去想，

堕落了那么多天，

是时候醒了，起来了，

时间不会因为你而停留， 

堕落的时间让我失去很多宝贵时光，

让人担心我～

对不起， 我的埋怨，我的诉苦，

只不过是发泄，谢谢你们的陪伴与安慰=）

谢谢你们让跌倒，也让我自己站上来，

谢谢在旁边支持我

p/s : I'm sorry that I always said words that hurt you! but seriously I really appreciate you as my friends. perhaps close friends. I'm really not mean that! Thank for everything! Thousand thank to you ~ Perhaps what you want to see is changing of me to a positive minded but not a thanks. I will do my best in changing myself. =) Seriously I appreciate you so much =)