2 week in UUM

2 week in UUM really let me gain a lots. Between these day, i'm really busy with my study, AIESEC, event etc. A lot of assignment come to me but i'm not manage to do it during this period. I will try to settle it out before holiday end. For me, CNY is nothing special for me, so i can do my own stuff and start study due of our mid sem are coming on. AIESEC, recently i being promote to executive for my department and for sure my works is increasing. I do blame and unsatisfied when i don't have enough time to do it but i still gain a lot. Can u imagine that i need to do 12 pages of manifesto in English within 3 days? Luckily i do have a lot of member support and give me idea. I also learn how to appreciate free time that i have. Every minutes, every second i manage to use wisely. Tired but enjoy the progress.
Within these day also, i know with guessing without asking will cause a lot of misunderstanding. Dear my gang, thank for you all support me always. I love you all.
This week, we have LCP election from 2.30 till 8 pm. During the process, i imagine that if i stand in front and vote for confident. I really cant imagine it. During Q & A question, they are require to think within 30 seconds.If me are one of the candidates, i really cannot do that. Recently i run for EB, i use 3 days to settle it. I have pass and be accept. Waiting for 2nd Feb to know who going to next run.


Waiting to go back^^

this week

everyday full with activity,my stuff. Now still want run EB. i found that a bit hard because of my English is totally out, Who going to save me? i need your help.Died soon~

First AIESEC gathering last two days, is nice time for us refresh back our memory there! I miss them so much! Hope can meet you all at UKM this end of the year. A happy new for me, from junior executive approach to executive. This is one of the spirit for me to run EB!

GOOD LUCK EE MEI and also ME!!

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Long time not write my blog already! Every time i want write, i have more important thing to do! Recently i don't have any extra to do other stuff! AIESEC. study, assignment come to me. Some times. i feel tension, i feel lazy, i want cry! I want have a friend to talk about. But i don't have! I pretend to keep all inside my heart, i pretend be cool to other! Now i thinking, I'm wish I'm not close to you all, but in my heart is totally sad, depressed and i cry when i chat with my friend! Just now, when i having my English Communication 2, the topic is about relationship. I feel that this topic is for me! I'm thinking, before this, we are best friends, we can talk, do what ever we want. But now, we like stranger, we don't know each other! When i see this situation, really down! I start stress when i reach my room! I don't know how, i don't know when we can be like before! I will give myself a time to do so, if i really cannot make up, i choose to be give up and just remember the nice moment we have before. This chapter make me more sad and down! But i'm not hope much, is okay for me what ever happen next . I cant predict it as well.

I don't want explain more to you. You know who am i like, concern about! I just hope you don't misunderstand about us. We just friend and also sister and brother! You can think i'm not concern you but you know the story behind? You don't know,you just keep on think and think! It's wrong, okay!!

Miss every moment we have

When i see those picture, video i really miss the moment we together. We are close before, but now? i also don't know what happen. Maybe is my mistake. I really miss the happy moment with you all. Without you all, my university life sure boring, empty and useless. This coming semester, hope we can as usual ( i know is impossible) , play , study, eat , workshop, event all together. Hope enjoy semester 2 ya.

bla bla..

Now i can feel that my close friends very far from me. Is that recently my mood really down? Why people who just know me can know me well? Why? i want hide myself from them. Where is my friends? where? Yes, you are correct. I need find some one and talk. don't put too much in my heart. I will be crazy one day. But who is that person? I really can't find now!!

My new semester is going to start soon. What i want achieve? what i want to learn? I need to think carefully. I always remember this, I must achieve what ever i want no matter what happen ! This some advice. Yes, i will try my best!

packing packing and packing

I start packing yesterday but until now not yet finish. I don't know why i don't have that kind of mood. I don't want go back. I know i will be more safe and happy over there but still have something make me feel just want stay at home! Recently my youngest brother start change, he start study and revision. Every night i will check his homework and teach him. Now I'm thinking, when i go back there, who will take care of him? She? For sure  not, she will keep on scold and scold. I don't know what make she keep on scold him. Maybe stress? But can't do like that, i really scare one day, he will run from family. He? both of them just like dog and cat. Cannot meet also, sure will fighting one. I really hope can teach him although I'm hot temper, i try and try calm down when teach him because i feel happy when see he change! I do hope this spirit will be him always. BUT? just like a problem when i go back there. Who can help me to take care of him? I really want him success. I know he can score well just need some times, need some people support, teach him but not scold him. Is that can come true if i go back jungle?

I don't have mood at all.

Dear brother, i hope you can success. I know you are different from us. You are well in memorising, while a bit low in calculation. never mind, i will support you always!

again and again

i think i recover already for my result. But not really. i know is not my fault but? i still can't accept it. when i chatting with you, only i know you just same as me. Your result is good enough, not like me. anyway thank for your advise and 'an wei'.. i hope we can accept the truth.. SMILE always^^

Thank you everyone

Everyone is trying to comfort me, advice me, cheer me up! Thank you. I know you all around me. ! Thanks guy^^
But you don't know why am i sad, yes for you all my result is quite good. But when you know the reason, you will say is bad! Anyhow, i still have two people know the reason and keep on cheer me up. Thanks, i love you all. My beloved dear, although we are different university, you keep on support me, always be there for me. Thank you again. I really appreciated it. To all my close friend, thank again although you all can't cheer me up but trying. I'm know I'm not good enough in friendship but you all always there for me.
BUT for those who look down on me, i will show you who am i! Yes, your result is good but your life just with book. I'm still get a lot of experience! I still win you okay?!! I will prove to you that i can balance up my activity and my academic as well! WAIT AND SEE!!

congrats to you because get 3.9! And don't shock again la. You know when your reaction just same like other, i really sad! Anyway, thanks be there for me. Really appreciate moment with you. I hope we still can study together as last semester! hope can be your group mate for semester 3! thank

I know.. i know

i know I'm not good enough, I'm admit it but u always like this. I know you are tension, but why you spread your tension like this? Why? Don't you think the effect? Why don't you think they become like this? why? You only think your side. U know why i never talk back,shout back just like he do? Because I'm know. That way i just keep it in my heart! You told me that he like got problems but when you ask, he say nothing. You know why? Because tell you also not use. I don't know why other stuff is more important than us? I just ask you sent me, but you give my unreasonable ! I hate it. Every time, i tell myself, maybe you busy,maybe you got more more important stuff. But actually? I'm really sad and i really jealous toward other! Don't you think your words some time is a bit chill？ It  really hurt people. You want like that? is that one that he really did what you say? are you happy? Everyone have their pattern, Don't you try others way to comfort him? Why you can nice with others but not with us? Truly i say i really sad of it. I can accept because I'm big enough!! I still know what is correct and what is not!

result out

today my first sem result are out. i get 3.37. is happy news and bad news for me as well. Why I'm happy? because i still eligible to get my scholarship..i'm happy still have many people concern about me. Thanks guy. I love you all.. how much? this much.. Happy^^
 SAD because i can't get what i aim. i cannot score well on it. Actually my other subject is good but SCIENCE SOCIAL get C+. it makes my result drop !. why? i know I'm greedy. before get result i say, is that i manage get more than 3.33?if i can't get,sure i will sad. but if i get? I'm happy right? NOW, i get 3.37, is more than 3.33. i still sad on it. NO one can comfort me at all. All say is good but u think is really good? NO! when some one is pay hard, u will aim high. this just same to me! Just got one guy know what am i thinking. Know why I'm sad! Thank, i will wake up before sem 2 open! any way i still congrats to my gang, they score well. all is 3.5 and above. BUT me? shame to become their team mates! is just same to my course mate!! Anyway, i want become quite among them. not get close with them anymore(hope i can do it).Well, i need set a goal, mindset for my coming semester. FRIEND, i still need your support^^. hope u still can support me and we still can study, change note together although through phone. I'm appreciate all moment with you

exam^^

Good Luck everyone for your result^^

feeling

Suddenly,i feel i really REALLY really down!! i need someone to talk.. if not, i will be crazy.. who can be that person? don't have! no body.. how? i don't know talk to who! every want say want know but is that they really want or just be 8 gua.. * why i can think people like that?How bad am i!!

all things mix together! when can settle it out? INDIAN!INDIAN! who know Indian dances? i need it now!! yes, i have 1 more week but i want settle it now.. can't wait.. no time for me le. anyone thanks to kok weng, florence, pezul , chee kar and sarawakian people.. hope we collaborate together to make things success!!

Why you like chips more?  some time missing and some time suddenly pop out. luckily i don't have any heart attacked!. anyway thanks for your concern. really appreciated it.. thanks!

Now I feel i don't want go back UUM. i wonder if i go back, who will take care of house? who will clean it? who will help her as my two brother have a big exam end of the year! PMR and STPM. hope you all can success. pity her!

I just want be a normal person. can you go away from me? please stop disturb me! i never and never disturb you. I just want be a NORMAL person! I dislike all this thing!! PLEASE ! PLEASE!

Sometimes  i really blame what are happening, why happen towards me, how i want solve it? I really feel difficult. I really want out from this problems. But can i? i know i cannot think negative. I'm asking myself. Why i can advice ,support friends but why i cant do it to myself?* thinking

After a lots of things happen, i know who are goods to me? who are not. Now i pretend not telling everyone. I just want keep for myself. I don't want share to anyone. Maybe i will suffer but its good for me *perhaps..

My dear er jie koay nee, maybe being quite from Muamalat. I'm going to miss you. I miss when you sleep beside me. I miss the way you give me winks. I miss the time u advice me. I miss the moment we together. I miss the time u comfort me. I miss the time you become my alarm and many on!!

p/s : now i pratising writing in English. I want improve!!

mood : all mixed together! I really need someone to comfort me.. BUT who is this? i'm still not willing to tell everyone^^

dream

yesterday i have a dream. SHOCK !! why? why u suddenly appear on my dream? *the dream keep on play in my mind*.!i don't think about you anymore as we seldom contact right now!! and something will not happen ! i know it.. why like give me hope? please..! hope just a dream~


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after the dream, today i shocked again.u still remember me and ask what are happening? can't u dont too close with me? yes. i hope we can be friend forever and can discuss,talk anything!! hope so^^

comment towards me^^

Here some comment from my friends towards me!. Some i just know them for few weeks, some for monthly and some is close friends

1234: i think i din post this status..coz lazy 2 reply..but seem tht u PM me..then i ans lu..haha..erm..u ar..very outgoing, friendly, helpful..n n n talkative..haha..anyone anything u also can chit-chat..really salute u lo..haha~~ 

is that a good situation?i'm think i need change to be more quite already! * i can success or not?  

555: 1st impression: TALKATIVE. 2nd impression: TALKATIVE! Found that you're a daring person, and determine. And it makes feel like you will become a superwoman in the future. And.. I wondered who is the secret admire.. HAHAHA. I like you because of your personality, not your f.background! Thanks for so sayanggg me! Btw, It's kinda SEXY when you wore the DRESS without the scarf! Hiahiahiaaaaa

 thanks you~ superwomen? i can't imagine that..hehe.. but i hope i can.. the things i must do now is be more confident, gains lot of experience,knowledge! i know with textbook, my life will be boring, and that NOT me for sure.! Dress? Maybe is the first and the last time i wore it. Who knows? 

-->713, this number got what meaning? Your birthday? Hmm hmm...take a good care of my darling even though always heard you said she bully you! Heee...and if next time got come KL must ask My Darling bring you come and meet me, or ask JCLY go fetch you come MMU! :DDD

 yeah.. it got meaning. But just for fun.. hehehe.. hope we got chance to meet u ya.. i can feel that if we meet, we can be more close and as i know, u just like me crazy and can talk anything as well^^

555 my 1st expression on u was u look like malay.. hahah.. erm.. nothing much can describe u le... smart, helpful n nice person.. lol.. wat i can see now is u r having a great life in ur uni.. so enjoy ya,.

 its okay for me since you are not first person feel like that. Haha. ya,I’m enjoy in my uni life..i hope that all of us can feel what I’m feel in university life~

  

你很容易相处,很容易融入新朋友间,大胆,然后就是很有义气,开朗，不过有时会有点悲观.

Thanks. I admit what are you say.. thanks for always support me.. i love u friend! i still have thing wanna tell u~

1111: hahaa =) u r the 1st person i meet in uni life and i m glad to noe u! u look vry optimistic in front of others but i noe u r NOT..like to put evryting in heart and solve it urself! lol~ relax fren! u hav so many ppl LOVING u and pls remember u still hav me! wakaka =) we hav a lot of happiness and sadness in our past time by the way i believe tat we can manage our friendship forever! cheer ^^

erm, maybe.. i don't know.. i know there are lots people around me,take care of me. But not all will really take care. Yes,in front of us is very nice.. but behind us? our friendship? i also don't know what happen. but i'm sure we are not close as before.

713: this girl quite talkative and sampat lo.. Kind and helpful.. Thanks for helping us something..dont feel 内疚 d k?... Appreciate moment together with you.. Hehe..smile.. =)

 haha.. i admit that i'm sampat.. but don't worry. now probslem already settle it up. he okay with me. friend forever

1000 :
-1st thing i wana shout at u , :'' Hey u , Stop bully me !''
-funny or ...can be called Crazy too
-shorter than me and always envy abt my height
-like to call me and chat nonsense with me

                                                                                                                        

hey, i want shout also, i want bully you!!. haha. where got talk nonsense, talk serious thing leh. thanks always support me, advice me.!

·         5555-> wow... she is a nice girl... really...
even though she is abit sampat.. mayb get effected.. but she is talkative, nice, btw.. she love to hide herself up... hahahaha... hiding her personality from others..
she onli will let ppl noe her happiness but not her sadness...
btw.. im glad to noe u 5555.. really... we can be brother i th...ink...
hahahaha.... xD

hey brother, cheer up la please^^ just know me 3 months, seem like know me everything. Died..hahaha.. will try hiding myself le..hahaha.. 

713 we know each other around 3 week. although we dint talk much when we meet, we always chat through text after that. I really like to talk to u as u r such a caring person. I really hope we can meet each others again soon so we can talk more face to face~~ ^^

 hey girl, for sure. when i come to penang, i will find u. Don't worry.haha.. plus i like to share our AIESEC journey. it just motivate me! hope can be MNC next time.. good luck! 

Dear 2011, hurm, I just get to know you ard 2 weeks time, dun really know abt u. but what I observed abt u is, u will surely be a good leader next time. u have the passion and also very proactive. I noticed that u even have a tee is after u joined some leadership camp. hahaha, so i think u will be quite successful in your future. and is glad to get to meet u in UTM, do take care yea and keep in touch =)

haha.. just same as me. i think we need in bus right? haha.. keep in touch ya^^ 

hope that i can change be more better person.^^