我的心情

好像平时一样，

我只会想但不告诉别人，

我和你，

不知是不是因为上次的事，

我终觉得我们有了距离，

但？

不知为什么我有点难受，

算了，

别想那么多。

我也不知为什么，

跟你，

我终是依赖性强，

不知是不是习惯你了~

对别人，

我就不会这样~！

独立的我，

什么都自己来，

我真的不明~！！！

房，

我换房了，

室友还是一样，

我的心情？

其实我也不知道，

我觉得我们俩适合做朋友但不是室友，

我终是怕过去的事再度发生，

房不再属于自己，

好像在陌生人房一样，

空气一点都不流通，

很难受，

本来开心的一点，

但，

到房间，

我会无端端得流泪。

好担心 =(

很多人都在安慰我，

关心我，

但，

还好啦，

应该没什么=）

但说真的，

虽然我们8 人分散了，

我一点也没怎样，

也许，

我们再也没有话题了，

对不起.

今天，

是七月的最后一天，

八月的到来，

是个好月吗？

我真的不知道，

也搞不懂，

算了。

八月的到来也就是九月要来临了，

八月，

可能会跟他们一起去玩，你有去，我应该会跟，

你会知道拿到大学吗，虽然很想你拿到北大，可是，不管你拿到哪，我会真心的祝福你=）

九月，

要回到学了，（开心，因为不用做工了）

我的生日( 我有小小的愿望，很想能实行，但不知怎么开口）

算了，不想那么多。

晚安=）

对不起

对不起.
我知道我生病让你担心了,
昨天,
本来你特地要买粥给我吃,
但,
不知为什么你自己下厨,
煮粥给我,
虽然,
粥不像粥,
我也不应该伤害她,
真的对不起,
我不应该这样~!!

生病

昨天，
不知为什么~
开始生病了，
好辛苦，
头疼，喉咙痛，伤风，
明明天气热到要死，
我竟然伤风，
真的不能接受

=（

你的依賴度是多少?

如果是你，你會選擇哪一種先玩？

Ａ、雲霄飛車

Ｂ、遊園車

Ｃ、旋轉木馬

-----解析-----

選擇Ａ

你的外表給人的感覺，似乎非常依賴別人，

但是事實上，你卻是出乎意料之外堅強，

就算發生了什麼意外事故，你也會將自己保護得非常好的。

　

選擇Ｂ

你的外表看起來好像很堅強，其實你是非常柔弱的，

雖然你的態度相當的強悍，但是事實上你是很希望有人可以讓你依賴並保護你的。

　

選擇Ｃ

你是屬於相當愛撒嬌、而且非常依賴別人的人，

不管在任何情況之下，你都要有人保護你，讓你依賴，才能讓你安心，感到放心。

我的答案尽然是 B~

我在想，我是吗？

还没进大学的我，

我是这样的人，

我去到哪，

我都是被保护的，

我都是被照顾的~

但，进了大学，

一切都变了，

没人在保护我，

在他们的身边，

终没有安全感~

反而，

我想保护他们多一点，

我不爽如果他们欺负他，

但，

我真的希望可以像以前一样被人保护，关心~！！

还有吗？

你对我越好，

我也内疚。

不知为什么~

虽然我还希望我还能像以前一样粘着你，

可是，

你的好，

令我也内疚~！

=（

滑冰＋VICO sampling

Last Sunday,
I went Sunway with my best friends.
We play 滑冰,
this is our first time to play it and we really DON't KNow how to play.
haha.
next time must find some one to teach me,
And I really enjoy the moment with them.
Hope have next time again
And YOU,
must play as well.
NO MORE excuse~!!!

VICO sampling,
before this , i really hope i can work regarding food,
and now i manage to get it,
Is really tiring for me.
but i do enjoy it., haha.
from here,
i can see that lot kinds of teacher,
some are kind and helpful,
some are very lazy and keep on gossiping
do u think with 4 man power,
how can we take care of 500 over people,
everyone of us have our job scope~!
I don't know how government select teacher~!

15 July 2011

15 July 2011,

Is not important at all for me,

But,

for STPM leaver, diploma or even Matriculation,

This date is more important for YOU~!

I don't know is that you check or not ,

but,

I 'curi- curi' check for you,

You failed to get place in Uni,

Yes,

you can reapply but I'm sure you will sad,

I really don't know how to comfort you

Hopefully all will be okay later.=)

4 days in PWTC

Before I went for this job,
I just call said that i want work,
nothing further info for me,
On that time,
I really scared,
I scared they reject me again when see my face,
And i imagine,
what should i do for this job,
make up people?
I really noob on this~

On that day,
only i know i just need sell product,
And they are super nice,
one from Malaysian. another 3 from Singaporean,
I like them so much,
They all very nice, helpful and also appreciate people~

For me,
during this 4 days,
I know more about myself, my friends,
I think I'm flexible people,
but,
when i realize it,
I don't think so,
But,
i choose to keep it and become follower.

My friend?
My style and her totally different,
Maybe because of I think too much?
Or?
She think surface only?

Human being,
always greedy,
And keep on take advantage on others,
When give you A, you want B,
I really doubt,
I don't know what should i do,
I really hope i can be like my friend,
Simple and steady.
But,
Is that i can?

I really like fair / exhibition.
Time flies faster and I'm not need wait time,
Every moment,
for sure i have something to do on it,
What's next?
This coming Saturday only i know =)

* Waiting for this coming Sunday, hope everything get smooth
( I still thinking should i let them meet? later they bully me back =(  )

Working Life

平时工作，
我都一直倒数时间，
但，
今天我觉得我真的在做工。
不像平时，
好像被罚站一样。

其实我很莫名其妙的没心情，
不知为什么，
跟他们相处久了，
才发现，
我们的性格很不一样，
只要没事做，
他们就要出去走，玩，
其实我很不喜欢，
因为我不知道要做什么，
算了，
我不想多想了~

最近的男性朋友都很奇怪~！！
算了，睡觉更好~

心情

不知现在是什么心情~

总觉得

总觉得，
最近好像很不顺利，
星期三时，
我们决定不要去 Kota Damansara + One u 做工，
因为太远了，
也不划算，
工作时间高，工钱少，
所以找了其他工，
最后，
拿到了，
7 July - 10 July =  International Jewellery Fair
11 July - 14 July = Make Up exhibition

7 July 时，
去到 KLCC ， 那个client 竟然跟我的agent 说多一个人，
其实我知道，
一定是我的脸问题，
最近看医生，
所以不可以乱乱来，
我的agent 还好，
补钱给我，
不过只有一天啦，
他说六，日，可能需要我，
我也不抱希望拉，
所以找别的工，
给我找到了，
今天见那个supervisor,
竟然说，
明天没工，
还叫月尾做，！
真的他**

不过还好，
给我找到一份，
虽然是10 am - 10 pm,
还好有 ＲＭ１２０，
不过也要等到月尾才有，
钱真难赚呀！

真的希望一切顺利啦～！！
不要临时说不要人！
虽然赔上，
但，
我不想一个人在家啦～！！！

couple

Today,
My bestie told me that she couple now.
I don't know what should feeling i have.
Is that i will lost a bestie again?
Or she will ignore me again?
I don't want such thing happen again.
Btw,
I will wish you happy together =)
hope we are friends forever.
wish to see you soon

Lucky? Unlucky?

Today,
Should be my first day work as promoter jewellery,
But,
I don't know why the organiser doing things very messy,
Luckily agent nothing,
and she promise pay me back the daily.
Although she say either pay me full amount or half,
Is okay,
because I'm no need work.
haha..


While chatting with the agent ( Jess),
when i look her,
I feel she having her own family,
But she say is bf,
and just 24 years old.
She really mature.~!


Finding a job is not easy.
I start fedup on it.
I want go back UUM,
I prefer study time

累了

累了，
我真的很累了，
我怕，
我再也撑不下去，
我只想做普通人～
我不想你们在高估我了~

其实，
我在想，
当我伤心难过时，
我应该找谁？
我的脑海里有你们～
但，
我不知我应该找谁，
我不知谁会了解我～

在我想时，
突然你找我，
你好像有心事～
但，
你也没有完完全全告诉我，
希望你能克服哦，
我相信你，
加油我的朋友～！！
我其实很想跟你说，
但，
我不要你担心我～！
所以打给你时，
我都在哭
不知为什么，
最近的眼泪，
好像很便宜～！

我真的希望有个人可以借个耳朵给我～！！
让我发泄一下～！！！

why?

I don't know why,
Every people that know me and you,
Whenever chat with me,
keep saying your name~
I don't know why,

Today,
I'm chatting with KD,
he said ( u and me) are close friend,
I really curious,
what is close friends? best friends?
And i post it in facebook.
one of my friend say that :

Umm I think close or best friend are differentiate by you. Not others. Some claimed that they are you close or best friend, actually they are not. Feel it with your heart. See who is willing to support you no matter what. I think close frie...nd is who always stay beside you, who is nearer to you,they know your feeling, they know your problems, give your support, give you suggestions. For eg your room mates, but they some times maybe they can't really help you in your problems. They're great. But not as great as best friend. Best friend, always give you the best suggestion, the greatest support, knows what suit you well.. know what you think and reaction, what you will do the next.. and of course sometime they automatically do everything for you, without requesting any rewards.
You can have several close friends, but only one of them will be your best friend.

From this statement, i feel i have a lot of close friend. always be there for me. Although some time, I bully them, I made them jealous, but they still there for me.

I still remember, 3 years ago, i did made a big mistake. I misunderstand her. I guess a few month, we didn't talk or contact at all. When we meet, i feel shamed to her. I feel I'm not a good friend for her. She never care and when i say, she say she forget, and ask me what happen last time? Actually i know, you still remember but you never blame me.. Thank any way. <3



For me, no matter close or best friend, you still my good friends. I really appreciate every moment that we have =) and right now, i miss some of you.

01072011

I plan to write on that day,
But,
due of some reason,
I can't write =(

Today is my room mate birthday,
Her best friends,
had made a surprise for her,
And I'm sure she really surprise,
because she never imagine,
I will come.
haha..xD

This date as well,
her question made me cry.
Luckily she didn't saw it =)
She make me,
Miss home so much.
But some times,
I really hate to go back,
I just need a peace day.
I'm not mind if need do lot of things,
But I'm mind if keep on argue among each others.
I'm very doubt now. =(

Afterward,
We hang out ,
play around .
I do enjoy this moment.
Thank 3 of you.

I think today is the most happiest day
But,
It changes,
when i check my mail
I don't know why I need be prolong,
What i did?
Yes, you did mention,
I'm not fulfill the requirement,
can i know which requirement?
I know I'm not good enough,
But,
can you list down reason for me?
Actually I don't know what you all think?
Is that what ever we did, we do, we done,
We need tell everyone?
Is that the thing fail or no result,
we need tell everyone?
I don't think this can made us proud.
This just for us to develop ourself.
I really doubt on it,
I don't know what you think of,
I don't know what you want?
Is that this is not suit anymore?
OR,
for you,
my heart still with my project and not this department?
Why? why?

6 days

Biore' Men
my first time working as promoter under hyper market
Really gain a lot of experience,
and i can share everyone if there are interested
Is really challenging
Can you imagine for the first day I working,
i feel i been cheated.
I really hate myself that time
I feel i really depressed for working
I'm just okay when supervisor call me.
I'm not asking in detail.
This my fault and I feel I'm so noob
I really don't want go work for second day
But,
what I feel is this is not my characteristic
i must responsible as i promise at first
Every day feel down and no mood at all.
When I'm alone,
I feel want cry
n0 matter where Am I~
But the second or third day,
my supervisor pass me attendance stuff, card, everything
My trust toward him gain back,
I feel excited work there.
Although i need take bus, LRT and walking,
Take me 30 min to 45 min
I like the working environmentm
I really learn a lot.
I know more about promoter,
I see lot of human attitude,
I can know more world.
AND MOST IMPORTANT,
i know where i can find promoter job =)

Lai Yee,
she always accompany me,
Because we too boring,
so we keep on chatting and chatting,
this six days make us more close,
hope keep in touch,
and really need thank her bring me back to LRT

Ayu,
I just know her yesterday,
she really got lots of experience,
i like her so much.
I like the way she say story.

Next time,

I will more careful and *cerdik*