一句话

原来一句话，
可以知道别人对你怎么看法，
重视你的人就会生气你，
不重视你的人就觉得你想怎样就怎样，
虽然，
我们每次都谈不开心的事，
其实对你而言，
这就是我们的共同话题，
或许，有一天，
我们再也不会想对方，
告诉她到底发生什么事，
再也不会说不喜欢谁谁了

在一起，
可能习惯了对方，
所以希望天天都在一起，
而不是好朋友的定义，
曾经是很要好的朋友，
现在只是熟悉的陌生人而已，
也或许大家只适合做朋友。

有一个人告诉我，

• 
  
  “ 

  我也不知道为什么
  •   可能太需要朋友了吧
  •    我可以对每个人都好
  •    因为我担心得罪或他人不爽”
    
    
    • “ 所以我觉得很辛苦
    •   尤其是在uum里面
    •   我真的累了 。
    •   很难找回自己
    •   时常都要配合别人。因为我真的担心，没有朋友
    •   就是因为我的态度
       贪心的是，我想把每个朋友都留在身边”

以前的我，
就好像他一样，
日子久了， 也许被骂醒，
慢慢地了解到，
能让你做回自己的朋友，
能让你想哭就哭，
能让你想笑就笑，
能让你像这样就这样的朋友，
可都难找了，
没有一个人会服从你，
也没有一个人愿意让你耍脾气，
那，为什么还要那么辛苦的跟着他们一起走，
或许，
现在大家都很喜欢你，
可是，
当你累了，
有谁会扶你起来？
有谁会了解你？
想清楚吧～～
希望你一切都很好吧
加油啦。

×虽然你看不到我说写的，我还是以然的支持你×

gathering

最开心的事，

就是和大家聚会，

最不开心的事，

就是开始问谁是你的另外一半，

我的表妹，

就快嫁人了，

每个人就开始烦我的事，

我说， 我还没有享受我的人生，

慢慢来，还很年轻，

哈哈=）

明天开始就跟朋友聚会啦，

期待中=)

爱情

最近我最要好的朋友告诉我，
她与她学哥的事，
一直以来，
她的学哥一直都在暗示他，
但，
却没跟她表白。
今天，
他终于知道他被人家玩了
我真的不明白，
男生都是这样的吗？
怕寂寞就在网上找朋友，
然后再去关心别人？
要说我们女生蠢还是你们男生花心？
还是每个男生觉得当女生一个人时就需要你们关心吗？
还是你们跟你们的伴侣有事？
你们就去找另外一个吗？
难道就不能专一吗？
有什么事，就谈谈不就好了吗？
为什么要这样能？

SL ，
不要想那么多了，
我会支持你的哦
不要再去理他了好吗？
慢慢的忘记他好了，
时间会冲淡一切。
加油啦。

=)

每当我在想一些事，

那句话就在我的脑海里旋转，

其实，这样我的心情也好多了，

谢谢啦

想太多

想太多了，

真的想太多了。 

今天在整理家时，

想了很多东西，

有时，却觉得不该想的。

可是不知不觉就一直想。

想多了，心情就一点不好。

对不起啦·

坚强

坚强，

看了这部戏，

我觉得我应该学会坚强的，

我不应该真的不应该在这样下去了，

慢慢的我就会开始依赖身边的朋友。

我应该学会做回了自己=)

加油加油

感想

"不知不觉在大学就这样过了一年半的生活，很多的第一次都在大学里发生，也见识过来自不一样地方的人，大学就像是在未踏入社会前的预备班因为在大学里我都能体会到‘心不可测’这四个字的道理。当有些人要在你身上得到一些资料时就会很客气的问你，过后就把你当透明。有些人就依赖性，没有责任感（依赖人家帮他做他该做的东西）。有些人可以用谎言来对话虽然只是一些小问题，根本就不会有损失的就算说真话。有些人会把'human as a mean,not as an end'.有些人会在考试前对你说还没读/还没读完什么东东的，拜托还小吗要耍心理术。因为我的身边就有一个恶魔，每天上课见面就是想不到原来他是酱厉害的人（应该是我太单纯天真没有防范的心），现在我已经学聪明了。。可想知道将来的社会是有多可怕的><"


post from my dear course mate.

I thought that he saying me as 没有责任感 because i always delaying our assignments. Actually is both problem. He wish to finish it one month earlier and I already told him that I really not free that time. 

After I get clarification him,

I know he is not saying me. Luckily~~ 

Yeah, I realize that to get a person that understand you well, can know you very much , and not going to blame you any time, always be with you, is kinda hard to find in a real world. Everything must depends on ourselves to achieve it. We don't know what others is thinking, planning~! Believe on ourselves that we can do better than others.

If you keep thinking how people will push you down, why not you think how to be good with everyone? and others keep telling that he/she not understand , not yet done finish or finish studying, those just a words is either make you down or motivates you, is doesn't matter whether you should believe it or not. He/she finish studying, is that your problem? not right? don't get effect ~ 

承诺·

答应自己，

不会再post 不开心的事了 =）

18.1.12

今天，

有两张考试，

忽略了一张，

不知要怎样去死了，

好担心考不好，

就算我会做，

分数呢？

也不知道教授怎样改，

担心因为carry mark 不好～

加油啦朋友们

安全感

我不喜欢，

我真的不喜欢人家看穿我。

一个，

就够了。

不想再有第二个。

因为我不想人家知道我的事。

信任，

我真的真的很难信任一个人,

但当你毁了我的信任，

应该不会有第二次了。

有时候真的觉得好像暴露个人看一样，

一点安全感都没有。

我真的没想到会有第二个人告诉我

同样的话。

不知道该怎么办了。

终觉得这世界很恐怕

消息

今天听到了两个消息，

有点点吓到，

在远方的我好像跟他们断了联络。

隔壁邻居今早去世了，

心脏病，

妈妈说昨晚还跟他聊天的。

人，要去就去，

没有时间让你等待了。

这时刻令我想快点回家与家人相聚。

也让我好好珍惜身边的人，

不要犹豫对你身边的人好，也不要求回报，

因为你不知道会有哪一个人会好好的对你。

另外一个是，

和我从小玩到大的朋友尽然要结婚了。

以前的他是tomboy,

大家都担心她嫁不出。

现在她比我早，

又有人问我，

几时要结婚了？

人怎的矛盾～！！

这不是问题，

问题是他的家人。

自从她的母亲去世，

就好像没人理她了。

爸爸又娶了另外一个老婆，

如果没能力，为什么要给自己负担呢？

自己女儿养不起，还要帮人家养？

要说自己很伟大是吗？

然后，就把自己女儿嫁出去

什么把爸爸来的？！！

爸爸这样就算，

哥哥也是一样。

有了家庭，有了孩子，

全部都还小，

最大才九岁。

还没给父爱，又娶另外一个，

难道男生都是这样吗？

有了钱，要做什么都可以？

那我们女生呢?

有时候，不是我不相信爱情，

而是，身边所发生的事，让我很小心去面对，

我的team mate 对我说，我又不是叫你去嫁人，

只是去爱一次。

但，我相信这世界还有人谈恋爱是为了将来

而不是玩玩下。

如果你玩人家的感情一次，

必会有报应的！

何必能？

我还是祝福你的未来老公会好好的对你哦=）

什么事，还是可以找我的

复杂

有时候，

觉得担心多余的，

有时候，

我不知道我应该怎样，

是我想太多了吗？

不想又不可以。

那，我应该怎样～！！

我很讨厌现在的我！

很想快点回家！！！

我终于相信，

一个对你很重要的人，可以弄到一个人哭.

Semester 3

Semester 3,

Almost come till the end (5 days more)

Almost 4 month over here,

Face ,

Learn,

Cry,

Laugh 

Enjoy

IT a lot.

First month of semester 3,

Busying with recruitment, selection, interview, meeting,

make my life busy and tired.

And I almost give up on what am I doing.

And not forgetten

We going Perlis for one day trip (witthout da jie)

Enjoying adventures over there.

Tired but satisfied.

Study,

Full with assignment that crack my head

meet some lecturer that I think is killer but actually not.

meet some lecturer that I think is nice but is killer.

Second month over here,

Another round of recruitment that handle by me,

not perfect but success enough~!

Everything getting smooth compare last timme.

Thank you for cooperation.

LLDS,

Another conference that handle by TM,

Is messy for OC part,

but I can see the development of Junior,

Friendship,

We start far and no time to get along with,

Appreciate those time we together with,

Trying to spent some time with them,

not forget that I book ticket to Vietnam ( waiting with hope)

Study,

mid semester exam start ,

this semester really troublesome,

one day 2 papers,

3 days 6 papers

Is killing me indirectly.

Although is only objective part,

but its mean a lot to me.

Fail to manage my time as well.

Luckily my coursemates keep support me.

November,

having our mid semester break,

2 weeks, (seem not enough for me stay at home )

Last time, I always escape to go back home.

I don't like it.

but within these two week,

I enjoy every moment ,

I don't want to go back stressful place (jungle)

(my friends told me that this is your choice, don't regret and keep it up)

And yet, I meet my beloved friends,

we talk and share a lot.

We always meet up and just for chatting purpose,

I always been bullied, but enjoy.

AIESEC,

I been awarded as Best member of the October,

I still remember that day,

I still in every emo period,

I escape from everything,

and that day as well, I need to share my experience (unforgetable)

Special date as well. we get our JE.

Study,

Busy with my assignment, quizzes and exam,

make myself can't separate to the two.

and yet thank again to my coursemate,

Friends,

First time having our dinner at Kampung Siam, ( without ah mong )

Celebration birthday for my room mate,

Although late but still surprise.

hope you like it.

And again, sorry for not always with you all.

December,

I plan to focus on my academic,

Seriously this semester worry a lot for my study,

Am I neglect?

I think so.

I try my best to catch up everything.

but what i plan, I fail to do it.

AIESEC stuff still take a lot of my time,

And this month as wel,

our VP evaluate us,

I get a good feedback on my task.

and for sure there  is some negative feedback,

What i need to is improve my presenting skills and confident.

and mindset as well.

Overall is okay.

And for sure, enjoy the moment having our JE in this department.

After having dinner at Kg Siam,

our bonding become closer,

Thank a lot and enjoy a lot.

And once again, what I think is wrong,

I thought we only have one gathering before semester break,

Unfortunately, we did have a lots.

Never imagine that we can go pasar malam,

eat durian, mangosteen together.

Tease, laugh, motivate , sharing and study together

one call can ask everyone out?

Our conversation not only AIESEC stuff, but personal as well.

Yeah, friends again.

This month having steamboat with them (enjoying again, buy too much already)

and we have Christmas Exchange gift as well,

among MT,

among SC, Me, and Snoopy,

and our girl gang in Muamalat .

TM exchange card =)

In this month as well,

I watch meteor for first time in my life.

amazing experience.

and celebrate New Year in UUM 

Last month for semester 3,

critical period for everyone of us,

why?

we having our FINAL EXAM =(

AIESEC stuff, we left behind. sorry

and focus our study,

and my department crazy again,

we can study and always go library together..xD

our bonding make others jealous,

our bonding make others doubt on our credibility 

and I believe,

whatever you do, cannot fulfill everyone,

As long as we happy 

and we will prove it~!!

Coursemate,

sorry that I always delaying my task,

thank you that always support me,

I know,

yours advice is for my own good.
and thank for understand and not forcing me.

Hiao Gang,
Although we just have one day trip in this semeste,
I believe that everyone of us enjoy it.
I believe that although we are not room mate (9 of us)
our friendship become closer (所谓相处容易，相住难）
I will organize more for our trip ( give more cooperation )

Xiao Zha Bo men,
Sorry and sorry again,
I know I always neglect you all,
But you all still always bear with me
I'm appreciate every moment with you all,
I try my best to hang out with you all ya ^^

AIESEC,
Last time I don't have sense of belonging at all,
Time flies fast,
I starting get closer to each others.
mix with others,
Thank for giving me chance for my own development.

Siow Ling,
At least you realize that you always forget me in this semester.
By the way,
Thank you for always listening my problem although you are far away,
Please don't forget me again ya . haha.
Hope to see you soon.

Li Yen,
more than half year ,
we not meet each others,
I miss all the moment we together especially in Tioman,
wish to see you soon ( surprise waiting for you )

Snoopy,
I know that you always treat me good
Sorry that I'm hurt you,
Thank you that you always take care of me.
don't want say much le.xD


Thank you that always support me,
Although we know each others since Semester one,
but i guess we start close in this semester,
we have a lot of topic.
And sorry that always tell you something that you not understand at all.
but you still support and advice me.
Lets plan more travel ya ^^ you turn to plan.xD


We have "special" relationship,
and just because of her.
Thank you that always ask me why,
to let me to think more on the problem,
Just be confident on your own decision
always support you =)

And lastly,
you know who you are,
I guess you are the first person that can make myself to become the real of me in AIESEC. in short time.
Thank you for supporting me always,
Thank you that always cheer me up,
Thank you that always with me when I'm down.
Thank a lot.
I appreciate every moment that spent with you~!
sorry that always hit you.
But that is me ya ^^

*the most longest post i post and full with happiness. That mean I enjoy every moment with every single of you. Thank again to everyone of you that step into my life and make my university life full with color. Thank to those that always look down on me, you let me learn, and wake up from that mistake. I won't forget anyone of you and I hope that we still friends in the future no matter what happen. I love you all.

Perlis one day trip

Penang community service time

Penang =)

8 of us.. hiao..


I'm so lazy upload others already..=)

友情与爱情

通常爱情都是从朋友开始，

但，

做了情人就不能挽回朋友的时光了。

从一个要好的朋友，

然后变情人，

在变最熟悉的陌生人。

让我觉得何必能。

不要开始不是更好吗？

有时候，

我觉得不要开始任何的关系，

保持现有的关系，

不是更好吗？

有位朋友问我，

哪你要怎样找男朋友？

其实我不知道，

我怕，

以后我会后悔

选了这条路，

明明大家是很好的，

但，

以后，

。。。。。。

是不是我想太多了？xD

还没开始就想结局了

犯贱。

希望你可以克服咯。不要再做第三次的傻事了。

我们已经告诉你了，

决定还是在你手中=）

哭

哭，

我真的和想哭，

但，

又哭不出来，

很辛苦啊！！！

～不要问我为什么～

自私

自私，

有时候，人是应该自私的，

但，

我又不懂得推卸别人

怎么办？

我很想帮你们，

但，

自己都自身难保，

真的真的很对不起啦·=）

对别人仁慈，对自己残忍，

这句点醒我，

帮了他们，害了自己，

何必能？

Always remember that help yourself before help others =)

话·

其实，

每次当我不开心，压力时，

我就想到你，

我很想告诉你，

但又不想烦到你，

也不想让你担心，

毕竟。。。。。

怎么办？

其实每次当我想要找你时，

我会想很久，

我应该找你吗？

为什么？

如果给不到一个很好的答案，

我就不想再找你了 =（

很压力啊。。。。。。～！！！

泻肚子

不知自己又再吃错什么了，

又泻肚子，

有时，

不知道是饿还是不舒服，

搞到我整晚都不能睡，

也不知道是不是不能喝咖啡，

因为少许喝，

不喝又不行，

我还没准备好，

怎么办？

不可以

“世界上什么都可以失去，不可以失去希望，

世界上什么都可以失去，不可以失去信心”

考试

考试，

连续三天，

令我快疯了。

也蛮担心因为怕考不好。

之前，

我的 carry mark 蛮高，

但，

这次，

不是很好。

惨了啦啊啊啊啊啊。。

算了，

加油吧。=）

讨厌

讨厌，

或许是我的口头弹

因为，

习惯了说 “I hate you"

我也知道，

因为这样，

伤害了一些人，

可是，

我真的没这样的意思，

玩玩而已=）

对不起=）

如果每一天，

都能这样过，

我应该会是开心的人了=）

关心

下个月，

我的 department 回来芙蓉，

其实也因为这样我很担心，

我怕，

他们不能接受我的家境

毕竟，

因为这件事，

我也被排挤过

说真的，

我不想告诉任何人，

因为，

我不需要别人的同情，

别人的关心，

别人的对待，

因为，

我还是好好的。

最后，

一通电话，

就叫到他们出来了。

要说他们八卦还是关心呢？

还是大家的感情很好？

暗示了，说了，

其实大家都不觉得怎样，

反而很开心的认识到我这个朋友。

我应该开心吗？

我不知道。

或许，

我对这件事看到很严重，

有时，还会想不好的事情，

一走了之。

我真的不知道该怎样去面对以后

我也不想因为这样得到大家同情与关心。

我不敢也不知道怎样面对以后。

因为，

我依然不能逃避我自己那一关

有时，

问问自己，

有几次的十年让我逃避？

我真的不想知道结局。

我想这样过就算了。

就算，

以后会是怎样，

我也不能控制。

我很喜庆因为有大家的支持

尤其是你=）

不管以后会是怎样，

我希望我们都能保持这样的关系=）

♥♥♥

Personality test =)

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.


quite true for me =)

失去

刚刚聊了一些事，发现到

有时候，

我真的不想依赖任何人，

因为我知道，

当我太依赖一个人，

我会选择什么都告诉他，

我真的很担心，

很害怕，

会失去他，

毕竟，

相处久了，

就会习惯他的存在=）

有一天，

因为一些事，

他不再理你了，

是很不好受的=（

但，

我又不能霸占任何人，

因为不属于我的=）

有时候，

独立是好的 =）

谢谢一直以来关心我的人

Which baby are you =)

SEPTEMBER BABY-Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. If you do not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.


I have no comment on this. Is depends how you judge me ^^

First day in 2012

2011,

AWESOME for me <3

I meet lots of people,

face up side down.

and bring the real of me now =)

Thank you to every single of you.

You play an important role in my life.=)

2012,

I wish that I can get what ever I wish

I wish that everyone around me happy always

I wish that I can become a good daughter, friends, team mate, coursemate to everyone.

I wish that I become more confident

I wish that I stop EMO-ing

I wish that I can know more about you =)

I wish that I can balance up my time

I wish that I can spent my time with everyone of you

I wish that I can come out from my comfort zone.

I wish that I can become myself no matter what situation

I wish that I can think what actually I want , learn in my uni life.

I wish and wish and wish 

I can fulfill all my dream =)

Lets say goodbye to 2011 and welcome 2012 with a cheerful smile and hope.=)

I wish every single of you can still stay with me until the end  =)

Lets rock 2012 and create more memorable for my story ^^