无奈

很无奈，

很无聊，

这是我对你的形容～

无端端的做了人家的情敌，

我真的不知道，

如果知道，

我应该也不会惹是非=（

可是，

今天我才知道到底发生什么事,

一切都来不及了=）

对不起，

勉强是没幸福的

你只会惹他讨厌你=）

你啊你，

为什么去问他这些问题。

我真的真的不知道给什么表情=（

弄到整个场面都静了=（

休息

累了，

我很想好好的休息。

不是活动的忙

但，

学业上。

从来都不会这样。

但这学期有点压力，

我相信是我自己给的。

还没开始，

我就累坏自己了=（

我不想身边的朋友替我担心=（

大家，加油啦=）

笑

我真得有真心笑过吗？

你不是第一个问我，

但，

我真的有=）

时间证明一切

谢谢你=）

对不起

对不起，

或许，我自私。

last week in 2011

Last week,
I did enjoy so much.
I had gathering with my course mate, Hui Zhi and Jess
We keep talking, playing, studying ,
I miss all the moment with my ex room mate.
Is totally the same .

And yes,
we step to last week of the year.
Yesterday I going Kg Siam with them.
Although a very weird combination,
but we did enjoy
And today,
We went to dannok.
Although no full team,
but we enjoy.
our two guy like girl.
You can't imagine how they choose mango?
Haha..=) and seriously what they said is really motivate.
I like the moment spent with them
And i learn a lot.

For you,
thank a lots,
I know this is not first time for you ask me such question,
seriously I don't know how to answer you
as I know the PROBLEM is from me
Others can't help me but just remind me.
And thank a lot for motivates me .
*appreciate*
I will try my best to step out from **

For you,
I'm sorry that not really share it.
because I don't want to demotivate you.
I hope you will enjoy in AIESEC journey

For you,
Thank a lot for always supporting me and motivates me
Seriously I really start change myself
No to better one but on my way improve myself.

For you,
thank for preparing me breakfast and all the meals.
Appreciate it.
Although you are not AIESEC member,
but you still always support me .
Thank you so much

For you,
thank to bear with me
I know i keep delay the stuff.
thank for understanding me =)

For you,
I think this is best way for both of us.
Enjoy your study ya ^^

For you,
I think this is first sem that we not keep motivate each others study
I miss the moment.
And what happen to both us?
Seems like a stranger .
can we be last time?
i miss those moment.

For you,
although you are far away from me.
But you always be there for me.

For you,
Good luck in your study ya.
I will miss you one.
meet when in Seremban ya

I wish everyone of you stay happy and cheer ^^

很想

其实，
我很想了解你，
我还很想知道其实你在想什么
其实，
我不想只是我在跟你诉苦
其实，
我很想知道你到底发生了什么事
其实，
我不想只是我在讲而已
其实，
我不知道为什么要关心你
其实，
我不知道为什么什么都告诉你
但，
我真的真的很想知道=）

家，
上星期回家后，
感觉真好
现在只想好好的读好我的书=）

你们的思想，
真的很成熟，
你们的鼓励，
你们说讲的，
你们的安慰，
真的让我想多了
我知道我不应该低落
我知道你们都在我的身边
谢谢你们。
其实，有时候，
跟你谈天，
让我很自卑
很没用
觉得虽然你小我一岁，
但，
比我想得还要成熟，
其实，
我不想别人家猜穿我、
希望你不会告诉别人
但，
对，我是很想保护我自己=）

算了，
读好书=）

good luck to everyone of you =)

Christmas Party

First ever ,

I celebrate Christmas party,

with a huge number.

We play a lot 

and celebrate it.

For sure,

EXCHANGE gift as well. =)

Guess WHAT?

Nam Weng being my santa again =)

 can't believe on that =)

I get a DIY card and present from him .

Thank you so much

After that,

get present and a car from Snoopy,

she give me photo frame, DIY card and kit kat.

And most important,

I have tang yuan to eat.

Special thank to my dear coursemate =)

but my kos lepas is celebration birthday with oo8,

sorry,

I really can't manage my time well.

Wish you happy birthday and stay sweet ya ^^

I enjoy my uni life.

so ,

do you?

~ LT ~

Thank You ^^

Thank You 

to everyone of you

that 

become my ears

and support me =)

I appreciate so much ^^

Thank A lot=)

~LT~

on the way

Recently,

My mood up side down.

I don't know why,

Lastly i decide to go back =) 

First ever i go back so sudden

On the way back,

the sky really nice,

full with star and yellow moon.

The environment make me calm

And think a lot.
and suddenly i saw meteor.~!
I never imagine that I can see it through in bus =)
I really happy on it.
How about you there?

Recently,

I really did lots of mistake.

I'm emo with my friends

Long time not talk with my room mate,

I decide to keep a side my task.

I doing it just because of seek of doing

I don't want care a lot

My emotional really low.~

I realized I'm wrong right now.

I should not show my emotion to my dear friends,

We seldom meet due of I'm too busy

No matter what, i should know what happen to my room mate and me as well,

I should find out the problem

Due of my emotional, I make a lot of delay stuff

Due of seek of doing, my job not perfect enough

Yes, I should change~! 

I really need to change =)

At home, 

I really feel relaz

I really scare to open mail

I don't want do anything

BUT, 

i force myself to study. 

one more day left at home,

i should enjoy it.

Today,

i dream of some one.

I had few years not meet him at all,

suddenly pop up in my dream.

I miss him so much =) 

How can i contact back him?

*thinking*

流星

我终于看到流星了

本来，

我根本就不想来看

即使朋友叫到，

我不想看

因为我不想见到一些人

也不想把人家的回忆毁掉

所以还在房间

但，

最后，

我选择自己去看

虽然没有我想要的人在一起陪我看

但，

我知道在远方的你，

依然看着同样的天空

今晚，

我回家了

一直以来，

我不想回家，

不管我怎样不想家也好，

我觉得回家兜兜风也好

我的final还有十七天而已

加油啦

好累·

我真的好累

我好像只是读书睡觉

我不想再接触任何东西

我很累

我很累

很累

很累

我觉得我真的很没有用

什么都不会

想说，

但又说不出

想讲又不想告诉别人

终觉得自己说的，

讲的

做的，

都不会被认同

什么都错

什么都不对

我是不是太在意别人的眼光？

别人怎么看我？

我好想好想自己一个人

什么都不要做

读书最好

我好累

每个人

最近，

我都有看我身边朋友的blog,

知道了一些其他人不知道的事，

我才发现到，

每个人的开心，

不是从他们的内心，

而是装出来的.

难道因为背后的故事，

我们都装开心吗？

其实，

如果我不是这样的话？

我会是怎样的人?

每个人有自己的故事，

每个人又不想说的话，

每个人有自己的过去，

每个人有自己不想过的日子,但必须过，

每个人有不开心的时候，但不想别人知道，

每个人需要的是支持而不是多余的关心

每个人需要的与其他人不同，

你们的一句话，可能帮了他们，也可能害了他们。

很多人因为过去，

坚强了很多，

独立了很多，

但，

反效果的话，

变坏了，

有时候，不是他想得，

有时候，不是他们要的，

有时侯，为人家人，

有时侯，不想被轻视，

人本来就那么复杂，

从来不会找到跟你一样的

也因为这样，

我不喜欢人家知道我的过去，

也不想让人家了解我

更不像别人看不起

虽然，

很多人都能接受，

毕竟，

是家境吗

但，

我还是不想，

过去别人排撤你的时候，

是多么的痛苦，

当时候的我，

有多么的讨厌家～！

不喜欢回家，

因为我觉得是他们害我的，

我时时刻刻都埋怨，

也因为这样我选了这间大学

我想离开家，但我不敢，

因为种种的原因

不知是不是大了，

我就觉得，

因为他们，我长大了，

因为他们，我独立了，

因为他们，我知道我要的是什么

因为他们，我参加了很多活动

因为他们，我更了解其他人

因为他们，我能吃苦，

因为他们，全都因为他们。

我应该要谢谢他们了。

但有时候，

我还是不能接受一些事

有时候，

我觉得为什么那个人是我

有时候，

我觉得我自己是多余的

有时候，

我觉得自己很假

有时侯，

我根本就不像我自己

有时候，

我勉强去接受

我知道，

社会会更恐怕

我知道，

现在就是我最好的时间学习

我知道，

不喜欢都要勉强喜欢，

为了更好的结果

我知道，

但其实，我不想知道，

其实，

现在的生活蛮好，

因为很多时刻，

我都在逃避

我不想去面对

可以吗？

one week

This week,

not full but quite pack for me~!

I like it =) 

Firstly my teacher come and find me,

bring her around UUM and dannok =) 

free from assignment, study, activities damn enjoy that time actually =)

Currently busying with my PA,

and start study right now~!

I can die gao gao~!!

First time being supporter,

Really enjoy it

Seriously I feel have a bit bias~!

but what to do~!

accept it.

Myself~!

Should i happy with surrounding?

I just want to be a normal girl. ^^

Just now someone ask me,

do you want continue it?

My answer : doubt on it

tiring day

more than 12 hours outside.
busying for classes and activities.=)
damn tiring =(

Classes~!
HR - i don't know why my lecturer like to move around. damn pity her coz like very *xin ku*
FM1 - I wondering is that she is killer? today pop quiz =(
Process Writing - I never know what they lecturer taught =(
Ethic management - whole syllabus been teach , I never know one as well =(

Means = I going to die this sem. Help meeeeeeeeeeee..=(

Today we have photo shooting among department,

my lovely team mate. hope can stay till the end =)

gosh. I'm too short =)

After that,
I having education on JE.
seriously I wondering is that what I going to pass to JE is wrong or not confident enough?
I don't know.
I wish I can conduct one session alone.
But perhaps,
she keep doing that,
Just make myself no much confident.
I feel I'm useless seriously in the team.
I know I can't blame others.
I'm not good in presenting
I try very hard to step out myself.
But at last?
Still the same.

After that,
i went for info session
First time attend.
do presentation in front
Seriously I nervous.
I don't know what to talk.
I don't know people understand or not
I worries so much.
As TMer, I fail to explain to people.
i can't be a good TMer.
I'm stupid to promise SC to present,
I'm stupid on it~!
NO more next time.
I should not go.
I don't want to present anymore.
Make me more down and down.
I want to maintain myself right now.
*cry 




I get a good feedback from a guy which same HR class,
but I don't know his name =)
He said during HR class, I'm just speak in Chinese, and very shy people
but in AIESEC, I'm crazy
Wrong perception.
I'm very shy in AIESEC lor~!!



lesson i learn
- 当你成功的时候、你的朋友知道你是谁。
当你堕落的时候、你才知道谁是你的朋友。♥

- For every minute you remain angry, you give up sixty seconds of peace of mind

- decision in your hands. No one can stop you from doing that . Just step out ♥

meeting meet

As usual,

every first week of the month,

we having our MT meet.

grateful that I no longer alone anymore.=)

And this month, 

we have some special event which call secret santa . I forget about it

I get someone that I dislike before,

and we never talk until last month

I don't know what she like, what she want

Headache on it.

Going to spent money for present and my time of doing card.

My second time to do it.

Should happy on it. 

Due of some one will view it,

I can't mention the name here. =( 

My JE,

after talk,

I think I will give him some time to think on it.

No point to force you.

and you will get what you want.

Support you as a senior. =)

Is that the way i treat my friends wrong?

Gosh,

I should review back carefully =)

Dear CD team,

keep the spirit up =)

support always =)

Friday

First ever
I stay whole day since yesterday till now~!
So happy on it.
In this two days,
I done a lots of things. 
^^


Seriously I worry about my leading skill.
Is that my problem?
I don't know.
he can perform well?
I don't know.
He going to quit AIESEC?
I don't know.
He going to quit SIFE?
I don't know.
I don't know .
 I put lots of hope on him
but end up?
I don't know as well.


Snoopy~
My daughter?
fake daughter? fake family? 
But yet, 
I still happy with them.
p/s, no others meaning ya =)


YOU?
miss in action.
but yet,
we still best friends.


Thank to everyone 

1st December

Today is first day of last month in year 2011,
Time flies so fast.
Is going to end 2011.
No regrets.
Full of challenging.
try lots of thing in this year.
hope can go smooth on this month.

Recently people find me talk,
should i happy?
I really hope that i can help them settle all the things.
While me?
I don't know.
I don't want to burden anyone.
I know what happening toward me recently
Who am I going to share?
Damn It~!
Hate laaaaaaaaaaaa...

I think that this month going a best month for me,
but too bad.
Its not~!
I need do a lots of AIESEC stuff.
Seriously I know how to comfort people,
but no myself or even my room mate
we have lots of gap right now
my fault? your fault?
I don't want think
maybe this is the best way for two of us.
No communication, no talking, no chatting
is totally different from last time
Although I kind of like to talk,
but now I feel is better I get my thing done on time.

AIESEC,
I have  a great moment with them
Now,
I have my own JE,
I need start to focus on him to make sure his learning point
I really scare on teach him wrong.
How stupid am I
Some time I don't know how to deliver to member
Because I feel that is opportunity to them
Is time for them to step myself,
Yeah,
I not yet step out myself .
Goshh~!

In this month as well,
study is important.
I try my very best to make sure I done all.

Thank for everyone to cheer my life.


I had learn some lesson this few day
* A best friends doesn't mean we are always together.
* think when you are busy to develop yourself, what your friends doing?
* Action rather than think. no action = ZERO