My Dear

I know between us,
we have a big gap,
i know,
this come from me,
I know,
what i ever say now,
Is useless.
I don't know we have such big gap.
Maybe because of misunderstanding among us?

Ya, some time,
i do wish i can find you,
i do wish we can like before,
i do wish you be there for me,
But,
now all impossible,
In our heart ,
sure have something to stop us to do such things.



Any way ,
thanks la.

Yesterday

Conversation's you and me,

You : I'm going Mid Valley
Me:  with who?
You : with my gang lo
Me : you all plan early or suddenly?
You : suddenly
Me: who's ideas?
You : her friends
Me: okay lo
You: actually I'm not sure

This make me rethink,
I guess is your suggestion,
I know you want know my condition
I'm sorry that I'm not telling you where am I work
I really don't know you will go there
I know if i ask you,
You will never tell me,
You will not tell me true.
And
Don't too nice with me.
I'm not a good friends,
I will appreciate what we have =)


Today,
when i open mail,
I saw a mail from my VP
Actually i really sorry on it,
I know this few time also cause of me,
I can be flexible,
But,
please don't be in my working hour,
I'm sure okay on it,
i can't say i sacrifice for you all,
But i really try hard on it.
Some time, i don't want explain.
I don't say much.
I'm just try understand you all.
Any way,
i try finish my task ASAP

so stupid am i~

I don't know why every time is time to work,
I will cry~
I feel tension~

People perceive me I'm strong enough,
I'm dare to do every thing by my own~
Actually you all are wrong~!
I'm not dare all,
every thing i decided,
I force myself and will tension on it~!
I'm feel I'm useless,
I want cry but I;m not dare

 2 of them ask me ,
just cry if u want,
express yourself,
Don't hide yourself,
Become truly yours~!
you are not always 女强人，
我们会明白你的～
你在我们心目中是很强的，
但，人需要发泄的～

This is my attitude,
I don't want people look down at me,
I want brave enough~!
Although just act~!!
But i fail,

When she call me and ask me for the second time,
I really cry,
Can u imagine in 30 min,
she never notice I cry~
while i talking,
i pretend laugh but actually my tear out~!
any way thank you so much
I know you have your own problem
Sorry about that~!
and i really hope you share with me =)
Hope you okay as well~!
Take care ya~!
and thanks~!
For the rest,
sorry,
I really don't want too many know
and i feel i really stupid on it ~!!
sorry everyone~

0132

Today,
I review back my blog for this term,
Lots of happiness, sadness happening,
Most happening is about friendship,
I really need to solve it =)

Work?
Yes, I really want to find work,
I don't want stay at home,
Yes, I can help my mum,
But ,
I don't want.
I prefer earn money,
I want buy things~
I want go travel again ^^

Actually i really happy know you,
Although you just know me,
But,
you seem know every thing,
You always take care of me,
always make me smile,
Hope can meet you again in this short time =)

While chatting with KD,
he remind me some thing,
smile from true heart,
Is that i have his moment?
When?
Why?
I don't think I have~
Think think=)

Almost 10 days

10 days , i spent for my AIESEC stuff,
be frank,
for the beginning,
I really don't want to go,
I feel is the waste,
But,
It totally change after few days,
we share every thing,
I don't know is good or not,
but some how,
I want apply it in my daily life,
But, is that works?
Because,
I believe,
AIESECer and non- AIESECer have different mindset~!
I really want have a try,
But,
is that I'm DARE?
Is that everyone corporate with me?
Have a try next time ^^

Recently,
My result just out,
Sincerely, I satisfied with my result,
have lots of improvement,
Although I'm not achieve my goal ( actually less o.o+)
but,
happy for it,
and most happiest,
I get 3 ice cream~
hahaha

First day in NatCon

This morning,
our MCP say that if you feel you are NOT gaining anything,
if you don't want to sacrifice anything,
If you don't have sense of belonging,
you should quite from AIESEC,
yes,
this what am I think right now?
Actually some times, i quite enjoy,
maybe is my problem,
I scare everything~!
I SHOULD change it~
but,
HOW?
anyone can tell me?
I'm not satisfied if I'm not complete it!


AIESEC?
always emphasize on GLOBAL LEARNING, LEADERSHIP, EXCHANGE,
but is that everyone really have global mindset?
is that everyone open minded,
NO~!
Some is close minded~!
This cultural,
I don't know why,
when ever i heard such things,
i ask myself,
is that everyone have?
answer is NO~!


hopefully i can enjoy every second here~

going? Not going?

Going?
Not going?
Going?
Not going?
Going?
Not going?
Going?
Not going?

I'm doubt of it =(

Finally I get it ^^

最近我的钱用到好像水流一样～！
有出没进的～
弄到我快要破产了～！

电话又坏，
电脑又好像有问题，
家里有有些事，
弄到我的头都大了～！


最后，
 决定 打给大哥说我要钱～
然后说电话坏了，
真想不到他很大方地说明天回来给你钱，
我也很没有不好意思的问，
你要给多少～ 哈哈
他一开口，RM 250 够吗？
当然说够，
很难的～

但是，
我也不选择相信他～
因为被骗了很多次~!
 哪知，
今天他真的回来，
给了一架电话还有 RM200~
难得难得～ 哈哈
虽然电话不贵，
但现在的情况对我来说很好了～
哈哈～




最近心情很差，
 但，
不知要跟谁说，
跟谁投诉 ～

就算有，
也不知从那开始
人啊，

真的很矛盾～！

=(

心情很不好！！！！！

一星期之旅

Mid Valley - USJ - Taman Botani - Kuantan - Pulai Tioman - Kuantan
一星期旅游真的真的让我花费很多~
当然，有很多很多经验，故事~

Mid Valley?
第一次站，
还不算是旅游，
因为我不会去瀞仪家,
他来接我，哈哈~
然后，去Sunway 吃honeymoon~
有机会再去~

USJ?
瀞仪家,
她的家人很好，哈哈，
在这里也认识了力嫣~
其实知道对方的存在但没见过面~
第一次，
我们还很尴尬~

Taman Botani ?
三人行
谢谢你们带我来~
虽然，
有一阵子下雨，
但，我依然能享受大自然

Kuantan？

我们用了大概4小时抵达~

肚子也快饿坏了拉~

吃了晚餐，

回家休息~

等待明天的到来，

有一点紧张，

因为，

Penang 人可能不能 on time.

巴士迟了一小时，

途中有一些小意外，

还好，

大家能一起出发.

Pulau Tioman,

三天两夜~

不是很开心但很值得~

或许，

太多人，也可能大家刚刚认识，

话题不多~

Kuantan?

两天一夜，

去了很多地方，

很佩服SL,

如果你问我，

芙蓉有什么，

我真的真的答不出~

应该是这样罢了，

有些人会觉得很不值得，

有些人会觉得很值得，

我能？

还好罢了，

虽然不算事我想象中，

但我觉得，

我们更了解对方，自己~

在这次，

我认为人真的真的很矛盾，很好笑，

因为，

有些人是被动，

有些人是胆小，

有些人假开心，

有些人很不要脸

有些人不知怎样该发泄

有些人觉得不应该出现在这个trips

有些人露出了真正的自己，

有些人有求不多，

有些人很开心

有些人在观察每个人

至于我能？

不同的人给不同的印象~

我也领悟到，

一个开朗的人不一定很开心，

一个完整的家庭不一定很开心，

一个认识很久的朋友不一定真心对待你，

一个刚认识你的人不一定对你很冷淡~

朋友不分久，新，只要真心，

什么都可以谈