Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Last day of February

29.02.2012,
Lead year,
4 years once.
Nothing special for me.
but in media wise, I saw peoples post that is a girl's day confession towards guy.
and if the guy reject, they need to paid it.
How pity of them.
But for me, I won't do such thing.
Just say I'm stupid to grab what I want for this matter.xD

二月份,
不知跌了几次,不知撞了几次,
留了疤痕, 也黑青了.
是好事还是坏事呢?
我也不知道。

发生很多事,
可是我能应付的啦。
加油啦
谢谢你们=)

Saturday, February 25, 2012

First week in UUM

不知不觉的,现在已经第四个学期了,
时间过得很快,
一星期就这样过了,
第一天的课没去上,
因为刚从KL回来,
带来了我们的朋友力嫣,
隔天就去了泰国边界,
星期二他们去了Perlis,
而我去看我们的大姐 VoC,
她输了,
可是她觉得是好事,
星期三,
去了Kg Siam,
星期四只去welcoming party,
星期五,她就回了,(我的噩梦就开始了)
而我去了AUUMAN。
当中发生了一些事,
弄到自己很不开心=(
这心情玩到很颠,
可是有时候我觉得我是装出来的,
有时候,
自己的表情告诉了别人,
总是让我没安全感,
让我害怕,
可惜不知应该告诉谁。
有个OC对我说,
收在心里好过吗?
但我觉得,
自己不好过也不用紧,
这样也不麻烦了,
说了有这样? 误会多多, 友情变淡了,这还好吗?
也有个VP对我说,
不要一直把别人的错当成自己的错,对自己有信心,
可惜我办不到,
因为我一直都以为是我的错=(

EB application 开了,
一开始我觉得我不要再继续了,
累了,想逃避自己,可是又过意不去,
找了MC谈,
决定去run 了,
昨晚,让我犹豫了,
因为一些人,
我不想再继续了,
因为以后的路会更难走,
我不知道自己还能走吗,
虽然你曾告诉我,
以后发生的事没人知道,为什么要去想呢?
好好珍惜现在不更好吗?

一星期的课让我担心了,
我怕做不好,考不好,
怎么办?
压力来了 

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

算命

今晚,
他们都来我房吃·芒果和鸡肉,
然后就玩算命,
一开始我也不理他们,
因为忙着看照片和回email,
然后,
他们就叫我玩玩下,
心情好就跟他们玩,
可是他们玩的都是比较倾向爱情,
有的没得都乱乱说,
大家开心就好,
哈哈,
虽然我不会看,
但听他们的解释,
说我太好玩,所以其他人都不敢靠近,
也说我顾虑的太多也是其中的问题,
我还在想哪四位跟我很好的。
哈哈。。
玩玩下,开心开心一下,
好久没有那么三八了。
谢谢你们。
我真的爱你们=)

passionate

Although pass MyLDS,
i can see everyone get motivate after join it,
but the situation different from me.
I still can't find back my passionate,
Can't fight back myself in doing all those stuff.
And today I decide to find back my faci to talk about it,

And yet she told me,

  • it has not happened yet
  • so no point thinking about it
    talk to people that are positive more

    • people around you were trying to change you
    • but it wont work
    • only u can make the change

      • take small steps, dont care too much
      • sometimes u will find it fun to 'challenge' people in a way
      • well, if you are not good enough, you would not even be in the team right now
      • so, you have nothing to lose

        • if u think you are not ready, then dont push yourself
        • but if u think it is a good chance to challenge yourself, by all means go ahead
        • chances dont come twice
        • while u r in uni, dont waste the chance
        • the good thing is, u know well what u wanna achieve

          you dont have to judge yourself whether you are good enough or not.


          Let me think a lot especially in why should i think in negative way and think some thing that not yet happen.. Why not i think in others way ?

          I can't make sure everyone have be there for me but yet i can make sure i always be there for myself no matter. 

          * Just scold me when I'm wrong but when you are tired to do so, just stop it . 

Friday, February 17, 2012

no because

Some time,
Is not because I'm don't want to tell,\
But is tired for me to tell every thing.

when i feel the thing goes wrong,
when i feel the thing is keep repeating,
when i feel the thing is no point to tell.
Seriously I feel tired to tell every thing,
Especially when ever I need some one to be there for me.
But there is no one.
I know the limitation,
I know the gap,
I know the problem.

SERIOUSLY I'M TIRED. JUST WISH I CAN SPEAK EVERY THING IN MIND NO MATTER IN WHAT WAY~!!!! 
THINK TOO MUCH MAKE MYSELF WANT TO CRY NOW 

Monday, February 13, 2012

Feeling~

Mixed feeling right now.
happy, sad, cheer,
everything mix together~
Who should I find and talk at this moment?
Everyone are busy with MyLDS,
and tired on it~!
I just don't want burden others~~!
=)

Lets talk some thing happy~
Tomorrow is Valentine Day,
Although I'm not celebrating,
but at such day , with all my team mate,
is a such good gathering for us . =)
Don't know what OCs will prepare for us.~ 
We shall wait for that~!


* I'm not break promise, just you are too tired.. =) Catch up with you after MyLDS =)

Monday, February 6, 2012

一个夜晚

难得,
昨晚,三家人一起吃晚餐,
大姨丈报销大虾,鱼,螃蟹,和肉,
姨丈和我妈负责煮,
我们这些小孩就负责吃。

然后
我们表姐妹四人去了蜈蚣山,
抽热闹,
看到别人放孔明灯,
我们也去买来放,
笨蛋的我们只会写,
不会放蜡烛,
更不会起火,
还好有人帮忙。
真是笨蛋。。
其实也不知道写什么,
因为每个人一定要写不一样的。

大概一点多到他们的家,
冲凉就要睡了,
可是,
朋友打来,
谈了一小时多。。

我们已经好久没谈心事了,
或许大家都很忙吧,
其实我也不知道怎样安慰她,
所以就听听而已,
我真的不想她因为一个人就和另一伴分手,
值得吗?
弄到我更内疚的事是她的好友很多事都不告诉她,而告诉了她所介绍的朋友听,
她觉得虽然口中说是好朋友,
或许只是出去可以玩到开开心心而不是可以玩也可以谈心时的好朋友,
换成我,
我也会很伤心,
可是我不知道怎样安慰她因为我是其中一个.
另一个问题是他在怀疑她的男朋友,
是不是追不到另外一个才追她的,
是她想太多吗?
还是女生的第六感是对的?
我也不清楚,
我倒觉得如果她愿意跟他分享,
就不会弄到自己头大,
毕竟都在一起了,
坦白固然是好事,
免得以后有冲突。
那不就更伤吗?
朋友,加油啦。( 对不起,有时不得空理你
不过我可以答应你,
只要你肯告诉我,
我会是很好的聆听者,
不要再收在心里了。
=)

Sunday, February 5, 2012

我知道大家都很关心我,
很爱我,
但,
每当聚会时,
终觉的有点点的空虚,
其实我很想大家都能在一起,
可是我知道不可能的,
或许食物方面,
可是往年都能啊,
为什么今年不能?
虽然他对我和他的女儿一样好,
可是,
我还希望我家人都能跟大家在一起,
毕竟是亲戚,
我不知道这样的要求过分吗,
可是,
我真的希望=(
一面开心的样子, 真的好难装出来,
但,
不装又不能,
毕竟大了,不想再让了担心了

Thursday, February 2, 2012

戒口

看来,
真的是时候戒戒口了,
免了以后跟辛苦,
不能喝茶, 不能喝咖啡, 不能喝中国茶,
我都能接受,
但,
不吃酸性的,
不能接受了 =(

找了一些资料后,
发现到,
这是gastrik 的迹象,
还是好照顾自己了 =(