Saturday, March 10, 2012

VoC

今天,是我第二次的VoC
之前,
有点紧张,有点害怕,有点担心,
担心拿不到,我会怎样,
拿到了,我又会怎样?
我真的不敢去想,
可是,对自己说,
我已经尽力了,
不管是什么,我都接受

今天,
弄到我最开心的不是成绩,
而是身边的人,
我的 JE, TM JE, 朋友,家人,一些很好的AIESEC 朋友都为我打气=)
最令我开心的是我的JE,
他的支持,他的一封信息,
让我感到欣慰,
也让我感到伤心,

相处时间还有三个月,
不知以后我们还能在一起玩,颠,开玩笑吗,
我真的会很想念你们
你们改变了我=)
尤其是你=)

Thursday, March 8, 2012

=)

不管友情,爱情,亲情,信任就重要=)
或许,我也是一样,
不信任一个人
所以导致我想很多,
弄到自己不开心=)
但我相信一个人时,
我什么都告诉,
有时觉得自己很笨,
但说了,心就没事了
我不要的是不要想太多,
而是一个耳朵就行了
什么都不用说=)
如果是个女生的话,
一个拥抱,一个信心, 
可以让我好起来


最近, 
累倒没时间了
累到想哭
可是不想再任何人的前面哭
我好想好想静静地哭一顿
因为我真的太累了
可是我不能埋怨,
这条路是我选的
就算再苦再难,
我一定要走下去,
以前是一个人,现在是一个人,以后还是,
因为我还是朋友眼中的坚强的人=)

Monday, March 5, 2012

过路人

第一个印象,
对她来说,我只是过路人,
有没有我,根本就没人看得见,
以前的我,现在的我,
还是一样,
在人家心目中是个过路人,
不知应该开心还是伤心=)

Sunday, March 4, 2012

累·

最近,
我都很忙,
忙得来很充实,
可是,我很担心,我应付不好,
昨天,交了vp application,
星期五决定我还会继续吗。
我又想申请 OC NATCON,
好忙哦

我不知道我能应付我的学业吗,
最近都没有温习功课,
睡眠也没不足·,
有时候,我真的累到麻木了,
有时候,我很想放弃一切,
有时候,我不要再做了。

朋友,
我一直很想抽时间给他们,
可是有时候真的累了,
可是,
他们的眼神,弄到我内疚,
有时候,又想更他们在一起

我好想真真的休息了


Saturday, March 3, 2012

Great Friday

TEAM 4 - we come for WIN laaaaaa..
I know I'm busy,
I know I'm tired enough,
But I still want to join this,
What I feel is, I want to support them.
And just spent time with my team.
We get No 4.
After playing all this,
Seriously whole body pain.
And tired on it.

At nights,
I did a very crazy stuff,
I know i still have manifesto, public speaking assignment, presentation, FM 2 tutorial as well as others AIESEC stuff.
but i still decide to join them to Hot Spring, Ulu Lengong ,Baling,
3 hours journey to reach there, 3 hours play over there, and reach UUM by 7.15am.
Tiring but enjoy every moment.

_______________________________________________________

I don't know what is deep in my heart,
although I'm happy with what I have now,
Some time, I really think a lot and effect my mood.
But I tend to keep it up.
i don't know who should I talk with.
I scare of a lot of thing.
I don't want its happen again.
I don't want hurt myself again.
I'm really tired to face it and think of it.
不知道为什么,承诺好像再也没有用了。
好像有了距离感, 不想再说些什么了,
我真的害怕, 害怕一个很了解我的人就这样不理我了
因为,我真的不能接受一个跟我无关的理由,
但我不能做什么。
我知道,我在隐瞒一些事,
或许,会更好。
知道我的人都觉得我笨,没有争取自己要的。
虽然,不再像以前,可是好像这样就好了。

好矛盾 =(

Friday, March 2, 2012

Comment

Comments,
recently I had receive a lot of comments,
a lot of peoples come and approach me ,
talk to me, 
share with me,
I feel happy and glad ,
because they believe me.
and one of it,
They said I'm changed.
I become myself.
I'm do the way that who I am.
I really happy to see that.

To you,
Thank you that always encourage me,
Thank you that always motivate me,
Now,
Might be I'm no important for you,
but yet, you still there for me.
I appreciate it.
Without you,
I believe I'm continue emo ~ing and stress facing my task
I appreciate that changes of me right now.
Hope fully I can continue it.
And yet,
to whom that you care, just go ahead and grab opportunities.
Don't regret when you lose it. =) 
Cheer,
I will always be there if you need me=)

Thursday, March 1, 2012

doubt

我不知道
我有没有再做无谓的事,
很无聊,
我真的没事吗?
我真的还好吗?
我不知道,
但骗不了自己的心情